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6:34 pm
I sighed, placing my work backpack down on the sofa. I felt like shit all day and all I could think about is that I'm pregnant.
I'm on birth control but I'm not naive I know there's a slight chance I may be pregnant.
Recently I've been having a lot of raw sex with two different people-that's the scary part about it. I know some people say you can't be inlove with two people at the same time but mannn-I love them both.
I sniff, my nose has been running and then stuffed all day which is running my nerves. I hate being sick.
I couldn't even sleep last night nor eat anything after those wings.
I walk into the kitchen seeing that my mom was prepping a meal.
"Went to the doctor?" She ask and I shook my head.
"I been at work all day, I haven't had the time." I told her.
"Mhmm, I wish you get your sister in that damn job. She think that nigga gon take care of her, she's a dummy." My mom spoke.
What if I really am Pregnant? What the hell am I going to tell them? I fucked up? I-I'm sorry I hurt you, Jourdan- I don't even know.
"It's some pregnancy test in the bathroom upstairs under sink cabinet." My mom told me. "They may not be accurate, they've been there for so long that's why I told you to take your ass to the doctor."
"Alright, I'll take them later." I told her taking a seat, feeling a little light headed.
"You eat anything today?" She ask and I shook my head no.
I watch as she grab me a bottle of water and a salad from the supermarket.
"Eat girl before you pass out on my kitchen floor and I just mopped them." She said also giving me a fork with the ranch bottle.
"If i'm pregnant-Ma, I don't know what Ima do." I sighed, on the verge of tears.
"Armani, when I found out I was pregnant with you at sixteen...I thought my whole world was going to end; everything was falling apart. I thought I wouldn't make, I mean I was all alone with having a baby. But it's something about the name Jesus. Armani, I looked in your eyes and I knew I had to change my life-I knew I had to turn a leaf because I was a teenage girl with a baby." My mom sighed. "Then I got pregnant with Paris and I was like well damn, I could barely take care of this one but look how y'all turnt out. Shit, I did a good job with little to no help but you have a village here."
I nod my head, she doesn't know the situation but if she did I know i'll be getting cussed out right now.
I stayed silently eating the chicken salad, adding hella ranch on it as my mom continued cooking.
