Why am i here in this life?..i don't belong here...I belong in hell.. idk how to be nice...idk how to contrast...im losing my energy...losing myself every, and repeat day to day. I wanna be gone. I wanna be out of peoples way. I don't want them to be treated mean. Us native get treated like shit. indians, mexicans and other types. We get treated like shit some people wants us extinct and have our resolvation. Our life. I got raped by my two uncles, 5 girls bc i told them i was lesbian but nowi am bisexual. And I only told is my big sister and my friend..m glad she didn't told any one... idk how i fell for someone....i think they are tricking me, using me. How am I supposed to know I'm trusting someone, myself?..do I js treat myself like garbage?..I hate myself, my personality, how I act, I feel like I'm a pick me girl..bc I always ask for keenan and dylan......
Dylan is too toxic for me. Sometimes and too coll to Date me. Keenan has a gf why am I having feelings for him?...
We're to young...why do I feel like this? Did I not get enough love from my parents?..probably..idk who's girl I am I'm a fucking troyblemaker...
I'm stubborn, picky, annoying, needy, emotional...idk now.
I'm 11!..why do I have this fucking life!?..I js want to be gone.
