𝓒𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓼 𝓸𝓯 𝓜𝓪𝔂 - 𝓖𝔂𝓾𝓡𝓲𝓬𝓴𝔂 𝓩𝓫1

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As the days went by, they kept crossing paths, none of them would consider being friends.

But for now, it's been some time, and Ricky didn't show up on campus, Gyuvin had initially thought that the other one would be working for the runaway but oh how come he was afraid to go there and ask? He didn't want to seem interested, it was past his powers..

"I heard that next month they are going to open a Christmas fair, I'm excited!"
"Same!"
"Same!"
"Same!"
"Hyunggg will you buy me a gift?"
"We all will Yujin, can't miss on it" said Hanbin
"Yay!!"
"Who'll drive" asked Gunwook
"Aren't you thinking too far?" said Taerae
"Nuh-uh"
"Did you take that from Ricky?" asked Hao
"Maybe?"
"He's the only one who uses it so no doubt"
"He hadn't shown in a while though, anything happened?"
"Didn't ask so don't know, I'll ask later"
"Don't you work in the same studio?"
"No? He has his own"

This has drawn some attention to Gyuvin's thoughts.. Is Ricky okay? He's not missing right?
Since they just know each other, others wouldn't mind but to him.. He wants something more from Ricky.

He had waited some time more

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"Don't be a scared baby!"
"I'm not! I just don't want you to feel uncomfortable."
"Really? How could I be, if I ASKED YOU"
"Chill! I'm sorry for that"
"It's okay Hanbin, if only Gyuvin was like this too, he's too bold, that's why he's alone as hell"
"Hao, we shouldn't judge, he wasn't always like this"
"Yeah the spoiled kid is talking right now"
"No.. It's just that he feels alone"
"BECAUSE HE WANTS TO BE?"

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"What did you even like about him?" asked Jiwoong
"That he doesn't shut up Maybe?" Hanbin replied

"Power couple" said Yujin
"Just get married at this point.." -Gunwook

"I want to get married too" murmured Matthew
"Jiwoong what are you waiting for? Easter and Christmas together? Your lover is losing patience" said Taerae
"We are not together"
"So that's what he had is for you?"
"I- no but-"
"No buts! Bye" said Matthew and left

While he walked away Gyuvin went by
"What's with him?"
"Jiwoong won't admit that he likes him"
"Foul!"
"GYUVIN WHEN I CATCH YOU GYUVIN"

"RICKYYYYY"

"Hi Gunwook!"
"WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN BOY?" asked Hao worried as he checked the boy

"At home?"

"WHY"
"I had some things to do nothing more"

If only they knew what was really going on with Ricky..

"Ricky.." said Gyuvin as he took the boy's hand and went somewhere else to talk
"Are you okay?"
"Mhm! Why wouldn't I be?"
"You look off, and you don't do that usually" pointed Gyuvin out at the boy's hand, which was being poked by his finger
"Oh sorry, I do that alot actually"
"You do? I've never seen it"
"Took a break you know"
"Oh.. Is there anything else?"
"No?"
"Why did you go "missing"
"I had things to do"
"No you didn't Ricky, stop lying. If there is someone who knows you then that's me"
"I don't think I should openly talk about it"
"Do you struggle with something?"
"I don't just feelings"
"Towards who or what"
"Someone"
"You like someone?"

The brunette's heart was crushed, did he like the blonde really that much?

"Yeah"
"Describe?"
"Uhm, he's tall, pretty, funny, thoughtful, nice, and cool"

All that he's not
'All that i'm not'

"Ohh"

'I could never like you Gyuvin' that played in the blonde's head, he knew what was happening

Ricky had always read Gyuvin's writings, on his blog, he loved them, that's how he first got to know him. Who would've thought that a designer would fall in love with someone's writings

Maybe if he was an artist..
Or maybe if he was a girl.

'I wish I could poke my eyes out, I don't deserve seeing you like this Gyuvin. I didn't want to break your heart, but I'm not allowed to do anything else'

"I hope that he likes you back"
"Good joke, boys can't be with other boys.."

stabbed his heart once again

"But you like a boy..?"

"Yeah, but I can't have him" said Ricky while shooking his head
"Even if he looks at me this way, would the others allow it?"

"Maybe? We are a free country"
"Not at all"

"If it was for me to chose between being burned in hell and being burned by you as the sun which one is better?"

"Being burned by you. Already solved the mystery to my own writings. How did you know?"

"Dunno, just stumbled across while trying to find Hao's blog" said the blonde and shrugged

As he walked away Gyuvin felt empty
Did he like him? Or did he not

Was he supposed to give up? Is he afraid of God? 'God doesn't exist' thought Gyuvin
Everyone knew that Gyuvin was THAT type of person. No one could change him, but Ricky did, and he wanted to do anything he could to make the older like him.

As he knocked he heart a faint "Enter"

And he did as told
"Oh hi Vin!"
"Hi Ricky.. What are you working on?"
"A piece, a dress, a story, anything really"
"It's pouring outside, want me to drive you?"
"Did you not see my car?"
"Not at all"
"Well that's right because I drove it to be washed so a ride would be perfect" said the blonde and laughed a little
"Aren't you tired?"
"I am, I really am. Tired of thoughts, these just keep me entertained"

"Thinking about him?"
"All the time, wonder if he does the same..or maybe it's just in my head"
"For sure he does, who wouldn't like you?"
"Would you like me?"
"I'm not gay"
"Neither am I"
"But-"
"My religion is not letting me, or my family"
"So that's it? God doesn't exist, he can't harm you"
"Hit your mouth and walk on fire! How can you say that? He's always here."
"Didn't think you were like that."
"Drop me" said the older and smiled bitterly
"I wish I could"
"I wish too"

And they both laughed

After some minutes of Ricky fidgeting and hurting his fingers while sewing he spoke

"Kim Gyuvin"
"Hm?"
"If your partner.. Is a Christian or believes in something, would you do it too or at least still be with them?"

"Depends.."
"On what?"

"On who"

"Well-"

"Is it you who believes..?"