billie
"it looks like you've gained some weight since our last fitting." my stylist, rick owen mutters doing last measurements.
tonight was our last fitting before the 'vanity fair oscar event' tomorrow.
"yeah i know, i've been eating a lot these past few weeks and going to the gym i don't know what wrong with me." i lied, looking up at the mirror in front of me and down at my stomach that was barely showing.
surprise im pregnant.
the condom definitely must have broken because we were safe all the time and when we didn't use protection dani pulled out.
i'm currently six weeks, i've kinda been hiding it from everyone, i know that i shouldn't but everyone around me has been so busy lately. dani's going on tour soon as well and i have my festivals show and work in between. right now wasn't a great time for a kid but shit happens.
my last resort is getting a abortion. i had made an appointment and it's in four days so i had little time to decide if i wanna keep the baby and cancel the appointment, then tell dani.
"the dress will still fit since it quite loose but i'll work on the suit just swing by here" he says pausing momentarily staring down at phone. "11 am works for you?"
"yeah, i'll see you then. thank you." i slipped on my hoodie and grabbed my car keys.
after our goodbye's i left heading to dani's house. it's been little over the incident with drew, even with all the security in the building i still didn't feel safe especially with drew constantly sending threats and gifts to the house so dani suggested that i stayed at hers until i'm ready to go back home. i was honestly thinking just to end my lease and move into my house.
"hi sweet boy." i cooed at shark, closing the front door behind me and he barked jumping up waiting for me to pet him. "you're so freaking cute." i say scratching behind his ears.
hearing heavy footsteps, i looked up to see dani walking the stairs and a ping of guilt showers over me. i wish it was easy for me to tell her.
"did you just get home?" she asks, walking over to me she bends down kissing my lips.
my arms slid around her waist. "yeah, did you get your suit for tomorrow?" she nods.
"mhm how'd it go for you?" she asked as my eyes diverted to her chest, she wasn't wearing a bra.
i hummed, pulling her body closing to mines. "really good, i missed you today."
"i missed you too baby." dani tells me, her lips grazing against mine, my body freezes up when her hands slide underneath my shirt.
dani didn't hesitate to remove her hands, stepping away from me— clearly taken back by my behavior.
within seconds, my stomach was turning into knots thinking of lies i could tell her. i glanced up, looking in dani's eyes.
"i'm sorry, i'm kinda going through another episode." i finally said as my eyes began to water and dani hesitantly nods.
dani hummed, searching my eyes clearly not buying my lie. "billie what's wrong? and tell me the truth." she say, suddenly guiding me to the living room.
i sat down across from her with my legs up in front of me and arms around them. my abortion is just days away, i want to get through it and pretend none of this happened.
"it's nothing really."
after a long beam of silence, dani lets out a deep sigh. "billie you completely choked up when i placed my hands underneath your shirt, that's not nothing."
