"Nothing here" you said with a sigh, throwing yet another book on the building pile next to you.
You and your brothers were constantly searching for a way to get rid of The Mark but had no luck yet. Maybe because you were not doing any actual job, anyway. But who could blame you? The thought of a certain archangel would not stop running through your mind. That certain archangel being Gabriel. You had met him a really long time ago, back when the Apocalypse was still going on, and you instantly had clicked. The pranks he would pull on your brothers had really helped in that. But despite that, when you got to know him better you could not deny you felt yourself growing really close to him. Falling in love with him was not hard, either, not when you got to know him better. Not when you got to know who he truly was and what his true thoughts and feelings, which hid behind the mask of the trickster and funny Gabriel, were.
You were not going to say anything, though. No you weren't. He was a powerful archangel there was no chance he would be attracted to you. A weak human. Sure you were best friends but there was no way he would see you otherwise. Best friends. That was something he had said and you clearly remembered yourself finding it hard not to cringe. You still found it impossible, even after all this time. But you knew that that was the bitter truth, despite what you felt for him. What you felt for him. Something that both your brothers were very aware of.
When Gabriel 'died' it was impossible for you to hide how you felt about him. You had really thought you lost him, that he was dead, and not coming back so you really found no point in hiding how you felt about him. The situation you were in after his 'death' really gave it away. It was as if you were about to give up on everything and everyone, life too. You just kept going for your brothers.
Luckily when you found out that he was alive none of them gave away on what you felt for him - you of course didn't either. And they had kept quiet till now. Well mostly Sam had kept quiet. He was understanding and you could always talk to him about issues like this - although you could clearly see him sometimes struggling to keep his overprotective-brother mode off.
Dean didn't of course.
There honestly were times when he would tease you about your crush (you were not going to tell them that you were actually in love with him) even in front of Gabriel and you really wondered how he hadn't realized anything yet . But then there were times that he would go all older-brother mode and completely overprotective and would refuse to let you go with Gabriel on the trip he had suggested taking you to - something you did occasionally.
"Nothing here either" Dean let out a sigh throwing the book he was reading next to yours.
"You found anything?" Dean raised an eyebrow looking at Sam who seemed really engrossed in his book.
Sam did not respond which made you frown.
"Is something wrong?" you asked but Sam didn't respond again.
"You found something about The Mark?" you asked again but got no response.
"I bet he's reading porn" Dean said wiggling his eyebrows with a smile and you rolled your eyes.
"Sam did you find anything?" you asked him again but got no response.
"Oh don't cut him off, (Y/n). I bet he's just getting to the good part" Dean said again with a grin and you merely hit him with your foot under the table.
"Shut up Dean" Sam's voice was now heard.
"Oh he speaks! He's alive!" Dean said ever-so-dramatically.
"Dean" you glared at him and he just shrugged.
"Ok first of; people can get really focused and interested in a book without it having to be Fifty Shades of Grey, Dean." Sam set his book down and glared at the older Winchester "And second of; well, I found something. It's not about the Mark but- It's equally interesting." he said the last part and looked at you with what seemed like a smirk.
"Really? What is it about then?" Dean raised an eyebrow, taking the book to read out loud "And they were made from heaven to serve heaven. Fight the ultimate battle. Give the most powerful ones what had been said they shall. Serving heaven and hell for they were made for it. Three for three. Made for the good, evil and in between." Dean read frowning.
"What the hell is this supposed to mean?" he asked looking at you and Sam.
"Well, it doesn't really make much sense but if you got to read as much as I did from the book then you would get it." Sam said with a smile, glancing at you "It actually says that... like I was made and meant for Lucifer to use me as a vessel and you were made for Michael to be used as a vessel, (Y/n)... (Y/n) was meant for Gabriel." he said with a smile and your eyes widened at the mention of Gabriel's name.
"W-what?" you managed to stutter out.
Sam smiled at you and explained "Well here it says that we were 'made for the most powerful ones' and then 'three for three'. I was made to be Lucifer's vessel, Dean Michael's and you... you were made to be Gabriel's soulmate. We were made 'for the good, evil and in between'. I was made for Lucifer - evil, Michael - good, and Gabriel - in between, which means love. They were the tree most powerful ones in heaven, the three most powerful angels - archangels, anyway."
You took in deep breaths, trying to calm your rapidly-beating heart. That was something you surely did not expect to hear. No, not at all. You were meant to be with him? How could that ever be possible you found hard to believe.
Your palms were sweating and you could literally hear your heart drum in your ears. Thoughts of Gabriel running through your mind and what he would actually think of it. Would he want to be with you too? Did he know about it? Maybe he did but actually didn't want to tell you because he... didn't want to be with you? Even the thought of it made your stomach tighten and feel heavy like a rock.
You felt your breath catch on your throat, though, when you looked up from your hands you'd been staring at for a really long time. Your eyes all but widened but you couldn't dare even open your mouth to speak.
Dean beat you at it, too.
"Well look at that!" he exclaimed "Seems like even the universe is telling you to make a move, huh (Y/n)?" Dean smirked at you and if your eyes were not wide before, your heart was not beating rapidly enough and your cheeks were not burning hot, they surely were now.
"Dean" you tried to say firmly.
"What? Don't Dean me now! I mean, yeah, I literally want to stab that douche of an archangel on the face but still it would be hell of a fun to see you try a move on him! Besides, you've had a crush on him for what seemed like forever. Now you just have the motivation to finally get the balls and show him what Winchesters are capable of." he said with a laugh, mostly because all he had said was to tease you about your 'schoolgirl crush' on the angel, and by the look on your face he had succeeded.
"Dean" you said in a low voice.
"What? You've been in love with him for like forever, and as much as I hate to admit it, he makes you happy. It's high time you told him!" he said teasingly.
"Dean!" you exclaimed, eyes wide and tears welling up in your eyes; fact that made Dean stop.
"What?" he asked, raising his eyebrows.
"You were not supposed to say that" you said, lip trembling; and they both looked at you with a sad look.
"Why?" he asked again.
"Because I was not supposed to hear that" a voice said behind Dean and Sam and they both turned to look at Gabriel eyes locked with yours.
You stared back at him for a while, more tears welling up in your eyes, your cheeks burning hot. You shook your head, the tears rolling by now - mostly from the embarrassment - and got abruptly up, running to your room.
"Shit" Dean muttered, running a hand down his face "Now I really screwed up" he added.
"Damn it Gabriel! You have to fucking stop appearing like that!" Dean said gritting his teeth.
"It's not his fault Dean" Sam said "You should go apologize to her. You really shouldn't have said anything, anyway"
"No, I am the one that should go talk to her" Gabriel spoke up and before he could react Dean had grabbed him by the hem of his jacket.
"Dean, no!" Sam started protesting immediately, holding onto his brother's shoulder; trying to pull him away.
Dean shrugged him off and focused on Gabriel that was glaring at him "Listen, here. I may be teasing her about what she feels for you but that's just it. Teasing. Now, though, I am serious. She's my little sister so, if you ever so think of hurting her or making her do anything she doesn't want to - and I think you know what I mean - mark my words Gabriel- I am going to hunt you down, find you wherever you may be and kill you, slowly and sure as hell painfully." he said through gritted teeth.
"You know how I feel about her, of course I am not going to hurt her. Now, you mind letting me go so that I can go talk to her?" Gabriel said with a half-glare and as soon as Dean let go of him he disappeared from their eyes.
"You knew all along didn't you?" Sam smirked at Dean who just shrugged.
"Maybe?" he smirked at him "Now come on, let's go get a drink. I want to get the the thought of my little sister..." Dean trailed of and fake-shuddered.
"Yeah, agreed" Sam said.
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You had your face buried in your pillow, the tears had stopped rolling, but the embarrassment was still there and the worst part was that there was no going back now. Gabriel knew what you felt about him and there was nothing you could say to cover it up. Things were not going to be like they used to and what made you feel all the more sad was the thought that you had lost your friend forever. Sure you would want him to come and tell you that he felt the same way but you highly doubted and-
A knock on the door broke your trail of thoughts.
"No" you said, face still buried in the pillow, voice loud enough so that Dean - who you thought had come to apologize - could hear.
You heard the door open and close, nonetheless, and you sighed into your pillow. You unburied your face but didn't see who it was because your back was turned to the door.
"I told you no, Dean. I want to be alone, please. You did enough for today" you let out a sigh and closed your eyes.
"Yeah, I guess he did. And even though I didn't think I would ever say it- I owe him" Gabriel's voice made your eyes snap open.
You turned immediately and looked at him, eyes wide and redness returning to your cheeks "Gabriel" you breathed out.
"Yeah, that's how they usually call me" he said with a light chuckle.
"Sorry" he soon added when he realized that you didn't even so smile at his attempt for a joke.
"No I'm sorry" you muttered looking down at your hands "I ruined everything didn't I?" you added and dared to look up at his eyes.
"What? No, (Y/n), no. Look cupcake, I know that you think that everything between us is going to change right now and honestly I reallywish that." he said and you frowned slightly.
"I knew (Y/n). Of course I knew that you are my soulmate and even though this might sound creepy I- I've been watching you long before we met. I just- I know I messed up but I didn't want to tell you that we were meant to be together because I was scared that you were not going to want me or maybe you would refuse to just because it 'had been said'. It's in you Winchesters to defy the rules." he said running a hand through his hair.
"Well I would certainly not want to defy that one" you said with a hesitant smile, having gained courage and hope in hearing him say that he felt the same way - although not clearly.
"You and me both" he said and you couldn't help but smile widely.
"Oh really?" you raised a playful eyebrow "And you're going to risk getting run over by the Impala, with my brothers in it?" you asked with a giggle.
"Uh well, I think it's worth taking the risk. You're worth taking every risk, after all" he smiled cheekily and you laughed more.
"If you give me the chance, of course?" he raised his eyebrows expecting to hear a positive answer.
You walked closer to him and cupped his face "I think it's worth taking the risk" you said with a smile and leaned in to press your lips to his.
"So that's you making a move, huh?" he asked with a smirk, when you pulled away.
"Oh you haven't seen me make a move yet, angel." you winked at him and he laughed wrapping his arms around you and attaching his lips to yours again.
