Alone

sparks

Days went by, but one thing Neil understood was that, he's heart and mind only belongs to aarohi, he don't meet her on regular basis like he meet his family , or kiran nowadays, but still he feels more alive with aarohi then with anyone else,
One thing was cleared in his mind that even if he married to some else his heart will always belong to aarohi, and the worst part is she didn't even know about it.

But neil do know that kiran isn't at fault, he had to tell her truth about his heart, she has to know that if she is ready to marry him, then, first she has to know that love won't be part of relation they would built, and that's her right to know before she decides to give any conclusion to their relationship..

And so, after months of struggle to convince his heart to stop beating for arohi and focus on girl who is trying to know him, but he failed miserably, he decided to talk about it to kiran, and hear he was, sitting with her in this cafe.

"Wow, aaj phali baar Mr. Neil birla ne samne se milne bulaya hai, nice change! , varna roz mujhe hi bolna padta hai milne ke liye.. " Kiran said while looking at Neil with smile and giving him teasing look..
(Wow for the first time Mr, neil birla himself called to meet, nice change, he was really it's me who calls to meet)

Neil know what she mean by this, he knows that she thinks it's a progress in their relation if he himself called her for meet, but he knows the reality.. And so he finally spoke ..

"Kiran, mujhe tumse kuch important baat karni" Kiran raised an eyebrows and looked at him in question maner..
(Kiran, I have  something very important to talk about)

"Look Kiran mai tumse sab clear karna chata hun phale hi, before u come to any conclusion, or even built ur Hope's high regarding us,.. "

( listen I need to clear everything from the very start,  before u come to any conclusion, or even build ur Hope's high regarding us)

"Wait, wait, wait" Kiran spoke stopping Neil in between and looked at him with confusion and slight fear.. And continued..
"What do mean by built hopes Neil, don't u won't us, didn't u like me as ur better half in future.. I thought....

" No Kiran wait, it's not like that listen to me first " Neil stop Kiran and spoke because clearly she got a wrong idea, and with her questions, and slightly hurt face was making Neil feel bad and he can't say what's he, come to say if this continue... It was already very difficult for him to confess about his love to someone, that to, when he, for first time was ready to talk about his heart..

" I love some one, but she don't, " Neil confessed and as Kiran was about to say something he stop her by continue..
"Then Mr birla told me about u, and i decided to meet you and give us a chance, because clearly my love was one sided, and so I, really tried, like really I tried hard to give us a chance but my heart don't listen to me and I can't feel what I feel for her, for u.." Neil could clearly see hurt in her eyes but still he continued, to clear it for one and for all .
"But iska matlab yah Nahin Hai Ki I am telling u that I a m saying no for this marriage, it just that marriage is a big commitment, or mai is rishte ko agar start karna chahta hun tho tumhe sach pata hona chiye ki mai syad vo pyaar tumhe kabhi nahi kar paunga, lakin han mai humesha kosish karunga tumhe respect, or support karnega whenever u deserve it, I will try to understand u, but agar tumhe ye riste ke liya naa bolna hai ye sach jane ke baad tho bhi no issue... "

( but that doesn't mean that I am saying that I am saying no for this marriage,   it's just that marriage is a commitment , and if I want to start this relationship, then u should know the truth, that, I may not able to love u ever, but I will always try to be there for you,   respect u or support you whenever you deserve it , I will try to understand you , but if you want to say no for this relationship  after knowing the truth , then also it's not an issue, it's fine)