love you goodbye ➸ niallhoran

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rachel shelton

june 2009,

this is my last day here in ireland i will miss everything. i'm currently in class focusing on what my biology teacher is teaching. i really have a strong love-hate relationship between this subject. i look at my biology partner who is focusing on the board even though he's messing around with me at the same time.

'cut it out niall' i pushes his hand and he laughs. i look at him and he smiles.

'what? it's funny look' niall pushes the piece of paper that he has drawn a dinasour and a little girl

'barney and you' he laughs once again and i couldn't help but laughs as well. niall couldn't stop making fun of me when i was in barney back in years ago. for him,it's funny that i have my hair braids.

'niall stoppp' i continues to laugh and he smiles.

i couldn't believe this will be my last day with niall. i never know when can i see him again. i believe that i will be busy and might rarely come back here. as i am having these thoughts,i'm still jotting down the notes that the teacher wrote just now. then the school bell rings.

'okay class that's all for today!' miss claire says and all of us start packing our things.

'wait! before we dismissed, miss shelton will you come infront please' she calls me and i stop packing my stuffs. why does she needs to do this farewell thing,i am seriously okay if it's not be done.

i walk to the front and everyone smile at me. it's heartbreaking seeing my classmates for the last time. i'm going to miss them so much.

'thank you miss claire. hi everyone' i starts and they cheer

'you go rachel!' one of my classmates says and i smiles.

' thank you for being the best,i couldn't imagine my school days without all of you. i hope all of you will take a good care of yourself' i smiles once again and all of them come infront. they give me a group hug except niall who is smiling at me.

all of us have been dismissed. i walks to my locker to take some leftovers that i haven't bring home. i watch my locker is now empty. my heart sinks. is this the right thing i'm doing? what if i will regret after? i don't understand why i have mutual feelings with this decision that i've made. i close it and screams a bit because niall is standing behinds it.

'what it's just me. want me to help you with some of it?' he offers and i hands him some books.

'please pleaseee don't you ever do that again niall james' i laughs a bit and he smiles.

we have some conversations while we are walking back home. niall lives nearby at my place since i was young. i wasn't very new here. at first i was staying in texas,with my mom. she then got a job offered here until now.

'do you want to spend the night together? i mean it's your last day here. with me' niall starts as we stop infront of my house. this breaks my heart. so bad.

'y-yeah sure. im also done with packings so yeah,there's a lot of free times' i smiles and take my stuffs from him. he then gives me a kiss on my cheek.

i get inside and see my mom,dad and my brother are still packing. they all smiles while looking at me. i get upstairs and put these stuffs in the box. i dont bring a lot of stuffs to los angeles because there's some at my dad's place there so it's nothing to worried about. i look at the tv show's script that i have auditioned few weeks ago. i can't believe i got the role. i haven't been in a tv show for long time,i hope this isn't going to be awkward for me.

'rachel,' i look at mom who is standing at the door.

'mom' i smiles.

'i know you're not prepared for any of this but if you try' she says.

'look,i used to be not known teen and i know how it felt like before i become a singer. you've done a great job on barney and even you can sing my love' she continues as in comforting me to be okay with the decision i've made.

'you were also on stage with me singing right? there's nothing to worry about. you have released some songs and even your fans loved it rachel. it's just i know you aren't prepare for tours or-'

'mom,im fine really. im just you know,im out of words to say how geniuenly happy i am to work in a tv show that i dont know what's it going be called and also with a band that doesn't have a name' i smiles. i never want any of this. really.

'i promise you,you will be fine' she then gives me a hug and kisses my forehead.

huh,four boys. a boyband. i haven't seen or meet them. of course i haven't, i was rushing after the audition due to recording my songs. what was i thinking. i should meet them but never mind,i'll see them soon. it's almost nine,how long i've been laying down in bed. how long i've been thinking about this stuffs. i quickly go downstairs to see niall.

i opens the door and see that he's already infront of my house waiting for me. he then held his hand and i interwines mine to him. we walk to the park that we always spend the time together with. leaving him isn't the best part. i know it's for work but what if he couldn't stand the long distance between us? what if he find someone else other than me?

'what time you'll be off tomorrow?' niall ask as we lay down together

'seven in the morning i guess' i says as we look at the stars.

'it hurts that you'll no longer here with me rachel' he looks at me and i sit.

'niall,it hurts me too but you need to understand i have works to do' i stroke his blonde hair and stares at his blue ocean eyes.

'will you ever be back here?' he asks and i look down

'i don't know. maybe i will.' i smiles. he then pulls me into a kiss. i can feel my tears streams down.

' rachel,i know you will let me go. i know what's in your mind.' he says and i hugs him.

'i'm sorry. i love you but i think we can't be together at this time being' i cries and he comforts me.

'i totally understand love,look. take the time as much as you want. im always going to be by yourside,even as your bestfriend' niall tears streams down.

'i love you,niall james' i says

'i love you too rachel eve' he kisses my cheek and hugs me for the last time. we then spend the night together before i fly off to LA. i love him but i have to let him go.