Judes pov
"Come on kids we're going to mommy"
I said to our two twins
"Yay mommy!!"
They came running down from the stairs of my moms house and Jobe came walking down behind them
"Go put your shoes and jacket on I vill be there in one minute"
They did as I said and now I was stood with my family
"How is she?.."
"Not good..."
"She's just getting worse every day I can't anymore it hurts so much to she her in all that pain and she's still trying to put a smile on her face for the kids"
I said and my heart aches
"She's strong baby she will defeat this stupid cancer I know she will,for you and the kids she loves you to much I can just se it in her eyes every time she sees you Jude the spark gets back to her she's fighting for you I know it and she told me that to your the reason so you need to stay strong for her to"
Mom said and hugged me
"I'm trying my hardest..the kids almost fund me all broke down yesterday it's just so hard to smile when I know my wife is struggling so much I just can't help myself to not cry every night"
"Jude..you know how strong she is-"
"She's tired of it I can see it..I can't live without her mom what if she dies"
I said as I started to panic
"Jude calm down"
"I-I can't.."
"Dad come on!"
Jeremiah said as he walked in to the living room
"Come her Jay let's go back to my room and Isaiah to come"
Jobe said and they all walked to his room
"Jude come sit"
"Name me Five things you can see Jude"
"Eh..you,d-dad,tv,glass ehh your s-shirt"
"Good baby name me 4 things you love"
"Y/n."
"That was one baby 3 more"
"Y/n,Jeremiah,Isaiah and you guys"
"Name 3 things you love to do"
"Cuddle y/n and the kids,be with you guys and play football"
"Good,now 2 things you you can feel"
"You..s-sofa"
"And one thing you hear"
"My kids"
"Good..."
Mom said and I was much calmer now
"Come on I'll go with you guys to meet y/n"
She said
We were now at the hospital outside y/n's room.
"Go in you Jude me ans the kids can wait a bit longer"
"Thank you mom"
I opened the door and saw y/n laying on her bed smiling at me,making me smile back
"Hi baby"
I said and walked over to her
She made some room for me on her bed and I laid down next to her
"I'm so in love with you"
I said and just smashed our lips together
We pulled out and looked at each other
"How are you my beautiful"
I asked making her smile
"Idk it's like I'm good one second and the next I feel awful"
"I'm sorry you feel like that and I wish I could help you it hurts seeing you hurt"
I said and stroke her cheek
"You are helping me so much Jude"
"How?"
"By being here I feel so much better when you're next to me,I want you with me forever and..you stayed with me after we found out about my cancer"
"Well ofc I stayed with you I would never ever leave you just because your not doing so well that makes me just wanna be there for you even more"
"I will beat cancer for you"
She said as a tear roll down my cheek.
She wiped it off with her tum and kissed my lips softly.
"Now how are you feeling?"
She asked me making me smile
"I'm trying my best to have a smile on my lips for the kids but it's hard..I can't sleep at night I only think of you...and football..idk it is going really well but I'm not happy I miss you at my games my biggest supporter"
"I still watch you from the tv"
"You do?"
"Ofc Jude how could I not!?! I'm to in love to not what you run around sweating looking all sexy"
She said making us both chuckle
"Is the kids here?"
"Yeah mom to I'll go bring them"
I said but she held be back
"Just five more minutes me and you"
She said making me smile and kiss her
"I love you so much no matter what,you're gonna make"
"I love you too"
We stayed in each other arms for a bit till I got up and got the kids and mom
"Hi baby's"
She said and smiled at them
"Hi mommy how are you"
Jeremiah asked
"I'm okey baby how are you guys"
"Good"
"Hi Denise how are you"
She then said and hugged mom
"Hi darling I'm okey how are you"
"Yeah I'm fine.."
She cuddled with the kids and gave them manny kisses.
"Mommy loves you never forget that.."
She said and my heart ached because it felt like she was saying goodbye
I felt my eyes start to water up, I couldn't handle it anymore so I just got up and left the room.
I could feel all eyes on my as I left
I sat down on the floor outside her room, my head was buried in my hands I just cried a river
I heard the door open and someone sit next to me
"Come here darling"
Mom said and hugged me
"I know it's hard but it's harder for her Jude, she's the one knowing she's near death-"
"Don't say that!"
I said
"I'm sorry but my point is to stay strong for her"
"But she's talking to them like she's saying goodbye it hurts so much"
"I know but she don't know if she will se them.."
"She will! Stop saying she's gonna die"
"Jude..."
I just got up and walked inside again and sat down but I didn't dare to look at y/n
"Baby's would you mind mommy and daddy having a chat alone?"
She said and they just ran out to my mom
"Jude I didn't.. I didn't mean to make it sound like a goodbye..I just want them to know in case something happen.."
"Nothing will happen you gonna defeat cancer okey!"
I said
I walked over to her and just kissed her hard and I didn't pull out I just kept on kissing her hard
We started to make out and she accidentally moaned in the kiss making me smirk
"You gonna defeat this cancer and we gonna be a happy family with even more kids"
I said against her lips
"Just for you..."
She said, she put her hands around my neck and just pulled me in for a long kiss again
"I have a operation in two weeks and that can make me cancer free but I'd they do a thing wrong I could die.. but I will do it because I will make it and be with you guys"
"And I'm gonna be here with you, the whole time"
"I miss being home with you guys"
"Yeah we miss you at home, it's so empty without you"
TWO WEEKS LATER
I said in the waiting room as y/n was getting operation, the kids was with dad and Jobe and mom was with me
The doctor had all left the room but no one answered my question when I asked them if she was okey the just gave me a sad smile
Tears ran down my cheek and mom just held me tight
"You may go in the room.."
One of the doctors said
As I walked in the room I saw y/n laying there but not awake, the only thing I thought was that she was dead. I held her hand and put my head down on her stomach letting my tears droop in her
"I'll always love you"
I said and placed a kiss on her stomach
I just laid there crying my eyes out until I felt her move and ring her bell
I junk up and looked at her, she was smiling with tears down her eyes
"I-o-w-w-what"
I said all shocked
I saw mom filming us and I literally jumped on her and kissed her hard asf
"Y-your cancer free baby!"
"I am.."
She said and looked deep in my eye
"I love you"
"And I love you more"
Sorry for not posting!!
And sorry for any misspellings🥰
