My Brother Can't Know

a resolution?

A/N: continued from the last chapter. This one has some more crying towards to the beginning. 🖤💛
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I laid on Perth's bed cuddling up to him. I was still trying to calm down from my short break down.

I love this guy so damn much and I've wanted to be with him for years. Although, this is too hard for me to keep up with. I want to see him whenever I want, I want to go on dates when it fits our schedule, not my brother, I want to have a normal type of relationship.

I felt my heart clench. Just thinking about these past two weeks was making me sad.

"How can things continue like this?" I said aloud into his shoulder. Then, I felt his hand pat the back of my head. He rubbed my back.

"Babe, we can do this. It can work. I just know it" Perth said.

I felt the pit in my stomach getting larger. The thought of this enormous and overwhelming pain was agonizing.

I looked up to meet his gaze.

"I can't keep doing this Perth." I forced his arms off. I quickly got up from the bed.

Perth looked shocked, "What? Where? Please no." He sat up and followed me off the bed.

I looked at him, trying to stop my tears from forming. "No, but really, we're so delusional for thinking this type of secret relationship could actually work for us..." I managed to say before pressing my hands to my face. I couldn't stop the tears. My heart was hurting so much that I was feeling actual pain in my chest, in my throat, in my stomach, and in my hands.

"Chimon. Please don't say this. I love you, we love each other, we are worth it." He said, with watery eyes. He looked to me, but he dropped, his knees fell to the floor. Perths hands grabbed onto my waist.

"Please please please Chi. This is just the beginning. It's not too late to turn all this around," he looked up to me, his eyes looked tortured. I love him so much that I can't see him like this. I don't want to hurt him.

"Perth, I...I just..." I tried to say something.

He pulled me close. He hugged my torso. His arms tightly wrapped around my waist and his face burrowed into my stomach at my bellybutton.

I looked down to his head up again my lower stomach. "Perth, I love you too. I love you so so much. But this love is what makes our situation that much more painful."

He looked up to me finally, his eyes still watering. I've never seen him like this before. He gulped loudly, then said, "babe, our feelings might make it painful, but we'll eventually get through this. We'll find a way to tell your brother and then make him accept us."

Perth grabbed my hands next, and pulled them to his lips. He kissed each of my fingers, the back of my hands, my wrists. "Our relationship is worth fighting for. I just know it Chi" he said.

I took a deep breath and sniffled. Meanwhile, Perth slowly got up as he kissed a trail up my arms.

He kissed my shoulder before hugging me. "Please stay with me. Don't try to leave us. I love you and I will make sure you know it all the time. I promise to cherish you," he muttered into my ear. He then kissed my left cheek.

"Okay," was all I could say. I leaned into his hug.

He held me against his warm chest. I couldn't stop sobbing, "I'm a mess." I rubbed my faces into his skin, wiping my tears on his t-shirt.

"Chimon, I love you so much. Please don't say that stuff ever again. I just cannot lose you..." he said with a shaky voice.

I nodded my head, "yeah. I love you so much Perth." I pulled out of his embrace. "I promise I won't leave us." I said before backing out of the room and out of his apartment. I hurried to the elevator before he could catch me.