they are the hunters, we are the foxes

you had a speech, she's speechless...

Chris' perspective:

"Oh god, it's really happening. It's really happening. IT'S REALLY..." , I scream because Sarah is throwing a pillow on me to get me to shut up. I go and hide behind the big plant in our living room and sing "it is happ-e-ning, really happ-e-ning, we are going to the E-ras Tour, wo-hoo!". Even though I know I am annoying, I continue to make a little dance and laugh at her. Now Sarah has to smile too, but she is throwing another pillow on me. "Hey, save some of your dance moves for tonight!", she says and grabs her clothes. A little background story to our outfits - I made them myself. Well, not completely, I may or may have not asked my mom to help me, but they turned out so so good. Sarah is going in a pink short dress (because it is summer and it's very hot ) with rhinestones all over it spelling out 'Miss Americana'. Even though she isn't really into Taylor Swift, she absolutely loves the dress, which makes me very happy because I spent weeks making it. For me, I tried a pink glittery jacket with the words 'The heartbreak prince' on it, and glitter pants, also in pink to match Sarahs dress. At first, I thought it was too much glitter and too much pink, but then I realised: When you are lucky enough to go to a Taylor Swift concert, there is no such thing as too much glitter! Speaking of the concert, I should probably change into my outfit too. I want to get to the merch stand without much waiting! 

"There! There is a free parking spot!", Sarah points out and gestures wild in the air to show me the spot. Surprised by how fast we found a parking spot, I park the car and we get out. Sarah looks absolutely GORGEOUS, the dress is just perfect on her and her hair is in Speak Now waves. She is so supportive of my love to Taylor Swift, she even looked up how to do her hair in a Taylor Swift style! My heart melts because I love her so much. Hopefully, tonight will be a succes! I am kind of nervous, now that we are here and I am seeing Taylor Swift, but also because my plan for tonight is actually gonna happen. What if...? No, don't think too much. Nothing bad will happen, you've got this, I try to cheer myself up. "Everything ok?", Sarah asks, probably because I am daydreaming again. "Yes. I am just so happy", I answer. I really have to control myself to not start crying. And the concert hasn't even started yet!

"The people are all sooo friendly!", Sarah says to me and she smiles. A little girl came to us to trade friendship bracelets, and Sarah just loves kids. "She also complimented my dress, how cute is that?" Sarah is finally as excited as I am. I knew it would be a good idea to bring her with me. The concert hasn't started yet, and we are already out of friendship bracelets, even though I made around 30 bracelets. "I am gonna get some merch, do you want a shirt or something?", I ask her. "No, it's fine. Just buy yourself more!", Sarah answers and smiles. She continues eating the sandwich I bought her, and I get in line for the merch truck. And I am so lucky! I manage to get the blue crewneck, an eras tour shirt and the midnights late night CD. I must have spent a fortune, but as they say, you only live once. And you only see Taylor Swift once in your life! As I head back to Sarah, she looks at me and then at my big merch plastic bag. "Oh, somebody spent wayyyy too much money on Eras Tour merch!", she laughs, and then she jokes "I guess now we have to live under a bridge for the rest of our lifes." "Well, you can laugh and everything, but at least I look hot when I am living under that bridge, because I will be wearing this then!", I tease her. She is looking inside the bag and laughs again. "Chris, this stuff is awful! You've got no taste!" I am taking the bag away from her and making a sad face. "Too late, now I am gonna wear it every day until it falls apart. That's what you get for this mean comment!", I say with a smirk on my face as I start to sing the chorus of 'Mean'. "Alll you are is mean, and a liar, and pathetic..." Sarah stops me with a big hug. "Stop it, ofc you can wear it. But", she says, "it is still ugly!" She is lucky that I can't throw very well, or else the merch bag would've landed in her face. Ugly! No way!!!

"It's fearless... it's been a long time coming... big reputation..." How many nights I've dreamt to hear this sound live! I've got chills all over my body, my phone in one hand and Sarahs hand in the other. "Dontcrydontcrydontcry", I tell myself, "We haven't even reached the part where she sings Marjorie!" But I snivel a bit when I see Taylor first. She looks amazing, as always, and she's wearing her beautiful Lover bodysuit with the blue and pink rhinestones. "Wow", Sarah is flabbergasted "She looks like a real life Barbie!". I squeeze her hand a bit and we enjoy the performance of 'Miss Americana & The Heartbreak Prince' - this is very special for us, because we are dressed inspired by this song. During the Cruel Summer bridge, Sarah screams the words out loud, as it is her favourite song and one of the few Taylor songs she knows by heart. Our seats are perfect - I may have spent a little bit too much money on our VIP tickets, but I saved the money since Lover Fest, because it didn't happen due to COVID, so I had enough money to buy us good seats. It is not far away from the VIP tent, where I can see Taylors Mom and her boyfriend, Travis Kelce, dancing and singing along to the song. I make some videos of Sarah, and she makes some of me. I bet when Taylor sings Marjorie, she will record me secretly because she knows this song makes me cry. My grandma was also named Marjorie and I miss her so much. That's why it is also my favourite song from Taylor and one of the reason why I feel so connected to her. But now it is not the time to be sad, I think to myself. And so I scream along to Taylor's hits and have the time of my life. 

 "What's next?", Sarah asks me as Taylor dissapears behind the stage. "Now we are getting to the Fearless Era", I say, more and more nervous. Soon it's going to happen. Oh my gosh, I am so afraid of her reaction. I am afraid of her answer. What if she says no? But what if she says yes, I remind myself. I have planned this thing for so long, I am not gonna back down. This is what I want, I want to spend the rest of my life with her. I love her. And now I want to tell her this at my favourite place ever, with Taylor Swift being there too. It is perfect. Now she just has to say yes. I really hope she does. While Taylor Swift is dancing in her best dress, fearless, I get my shit together and breathe calmly. Now we're getting to the part where she sings Love Story. "I love this song! It reminds me so much of my childhood!", Sarah shouts and dances along to the first verse. I put my hand into my pockets and reach for the little box inside. Now it's my time. Taylor sings "Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone, I keep waiting for you but you never come, is this in my head, don't know what to think..." I go down on one knee. The people around me start screaming and some are recording me. "Sarah Jones, do you want to marry me? I love you so much, and I want you to know that you're the only one for me.", I say to Sarah as her face turns from happy to shocked. I supose it's normal that she is shocked. And I know many people have to calm down before they can answer a question like this. So I wait and look at my beautiful, perfect girlfriend. She breathes heavily and looks around at the people filmimg and watching us. Then she looks at me. I smile at her, and want to ask again. Sarah stops laughing and tears stream down her face. I think that is normal too, I've never done a proposal before. But now everybody is talking and some people look really concerned. What on earth is happening? I feel my heart beating and I look at Sarah. She looks furious now, and sad at the same time. I start shaking and I slowly put the ring down. My whole world is collapsing. What is taking her so long? Why doesn't she answer? I look to the people standing around us and want to ask them what is happening, what Sarah is doing. But instead, it's all just a blur, I can't see anything but Sarah. and I'll never forget the look on her face. She looks... angry. And at the same time, she is crying. Why? She breathes again and wants to answer. Finally! She says : "I..."