they are the hunters, we are the foxes

idk about you, but I'm feeling 22

"NO WAY!", I scream and hug Andrea before she can even react. "You would do that for me? REALLY OMG!! I can't believe this!!" I run to Travis and hug him, and, because I am in a hugging mood, I also hug Scott. I may be screaming like a little child, but this is a dream come true. I go back to Andrea and say "How can I thank you! This is so great, I don't deserve it!" She just hugs me again and tells me that I deserve it more than anyone else and that I should celebrate it by dancing along to Taylor's song 'Don't blame me'. And I do. I am dancing with Andrea, Scott and Travis and I forget that I am a terrible dancer and I hate dancing. But when you're lucky enough to hear 'Don't blame me' live, this doesn't matter. No one will come up to you and say that your dancing sucks. You just do it and have the time of your live.
Later, Taylor finishes her reputation set and the speak now set begins. Speak Now is my favourite era, so I really scream the songs with her and Andrea looks at me worried. "Everything ok? You got a really loud voice!", she jokes and goes away to get herself a glass of water (and maybe because she wants to escape my bad singing, too). Taylor wears the purple cupcake dress and she looks like a princess. "Speak Now is my favourite era, because this was the time I became a swiftie.", I tell Scott, who asked why I loved the songs so much. "Really? How old where you when it got released?", he asks me. "I am the same age as Taylor, so I was around 20 years old. This time was really hard for me because my mom died in a car accident." , I tell him and watch the show silently. I've made my peace with this story, but it still hurts telling it to strangers who didn't experience it and who will never feel the same way like me.
"Oh, I'm really sorry for your loss. I hope you feel better now and I hope Taylor helped you during this time.", he says and stands still next to me. "She's the only reason I am still alive.", I respond and look at him. "You've raised a great daughter. She inspires so many people out there to be brave, be fearless, be yourself and to fight for the things you love."
Scott doesn't look me in the eyes, but I swear I saw a single tear running down her face. I try to overplay the sensitive situation for him. "I probably had one or two glasses too much of Travis' drink!", I say and continue watching the performance of Taylor's back up dancers. They are so good! They never trip or are out of breath for 3 and a half hour straight. I would never!
When Speak Now Taylor dissapears behind the big screen, Andrea comes to me again. "It's time! Are you excited?", she asks me. "Of course! It still feels surreal!", I laugh and take a last sip of my drink. "The security will be there any minute! They will guide you safely to your spot where you have to wait for Taylor. You can speak with her, but not for too long, because she has to continue her choreography. Have fun!", Andrea tells me and points at 3 men dressed in black waiting infront of the tent. I take a deep breath. This is all I ever wanted. This is my dream. I am going to meet Taylor Swift! I go to the security guards and they build a circle around me. As we part the crowd, many people whisper and show around phones as they see me. What are they talking about? Don't worry about it, you can deal with this question later, I remind myself. Finally, I am at my spot and I watch Taylor perform and then everything happens so fast. I can't even realize it this quick, and suddenly she dances to me and gives me her hat. "I know what happened, I am so sorry for you!", she screams because the music is so loud. Then she grabs my hand to hold it for a second. And there it happens. I get a feeling like I had just gotten an electric shock. Taylor looks frightened too. Did she feel the same? "Invisible String!", she whispers and looks at her hand and then at mine. "Did you feel it too?", I ask her excited. "Yeah, and that's definitely NOT normal! What on earth is happening??", she says and she is sounding terrified. Her choreography should've continued right now, but she still sits and looks at her hand. Then she grabs mine again and another time, I feel her electric touch. Now I'm curious too. "What is this? Did you ever feel something like this?", I ask her. She is looking around, her dancers are clueless why she's taking so long. One of them starts another dance and the others join to overplay the situation. "I have no idea!", she whispers, afraid somebody could've heard our conversation. "But I really have to keep going now!" And before I can ask her for to meet me after the show so we can discuss this later, she puts on her stage smile and dances back to her dancers and leaves me sitting there with the 22 hat.
After the 22 hat incident, I head back to the tent. Taylor's parents didn't see what was going on, they thought she missed her clue to go on and played it off. I Don't say a word about what happened on stage. I hope Taylor and I get a chance to talk about this soon, because it freaks me out. I want to know why she said "invisible string". I want to know why I felt this electric feeling when she grabbed my hand. I know I'm not attracted to Taylor Swift. I've never been one of the fans who sexualise her and have a crush on her. But I felt this bond between us - and it kills me to not know what it was.