Selfish Love

Chapter 27

Judy

"I'm not gonna force you to tell me what's going on, but I'd really love it if you could" she said putting her hand on mine with a smile and I just gave her a tight lipped smile.

"Kayla and I aren't what you guys think, well at least not to her" she mutttered and I looked at her, she just chuckled
"Before last week, we were just messing around but that day at their place we decided to take things a notch further, well at least that's what Kayla wanted, but I wasn't ready" she explained

"Why"? I asked and she looked at me "why weren't you ready, I mean, don't you like her"? I asked and she sighed

"I do like her, I mean she's beautiful and hot and smart but I don't know if I want her like that, I mean I like boys, I've never been with a girl before, so I wasn't prepared and she wanted more than just messing around I'm not sure I wanna go that far, so since then we've not talked about it, she's been distant and it's kind of awkward and weird" she finished playing with her fingers "she probably hates me" she added chuckling.

"How do you know that, you've not even talked to her about it, maybe she thinks you don't like her or you think she's weird or something" I say with a shrug and she just shakes her head.

"I see the way she looks at me, she expect more not just kiss and messing around, she wanted us to have sex and I'm not ready to do that with a girl, I'm attracted to boys not girls, I didn't think she'd want to take it this far, now everything is awkward and I kind of feel bad cause it's my fault, I led her on without thinking it through" she said regret filling her tone, I just put my hands on hers

"Hey Adrianna, it's not your fault, she should have talked you and made you understand that she didn't want to just mess around with you, you both didn't communicate what you wanted so it's not just on you, don't beat yourself because of it" I explain and she just sigh out before nodding

"Okay, if you say so, I'm gonna try to talk to her and get all this tension and awkwardness out of the way" she mutters and I nod before pulling her close to my side and wrapping my hands around her shoulder.

"What's up with Abby and Andre? she's been so clingy around him lately, it's actually kind of annoying" she muttered pulling back and looking at me.

I just sigh out and go back to playing with my fingers, I have to tell her.
I should tell her, she needs to know, maybe she can help me out.

I'm not gonna tell her about Jordan tho, just Andre.
I breathe out again before looking up

"Andre and I had sex" I mutttered and I heard her gasp

"Whoa, how did that happen, scratch that, when did it happen"? She asked with shock written all over her face

"Last week, after the hang out at Kayla's, I caught him kissing Abby so I kind of got mad, I don't even know why I got angry, so I started giving him attitude, then that night at Sam's place that he offered to bring me back home, we got home and we got talking, I don't know what came over me and I asked him to kiss me and he did and that's how it happened, woke up the next morning and we were both butt ass naked on my bed" I rushed out

"Wow" she whispered

"Yeah, since then I've been avoiding him, I don't wanna talk about it with him, now everything is awkward between us and we still have the whole marriage thing to deal with and also I'd be resuming my father's office soon to get familiar with how it works, everything is just so overwhelming" I rush and she quickly rubs my shoulders

"Let me get this right, you had sex with Andre but you don't wanna talk about it with him, why"? She asked and I sighed out

"It's weird, Adrianna he's my best friend, I can't just decide to wanna talk to him about us having sex" I whispered