It's been exactly 3 years since dad disappeared. I still don't know how to feel about it all, I don't know if I hate his guts, weather I want to try and find him or just leave it and pretend he never existed.
Mums not making it any easier with the whole pretending he never existed, that's the choice she chose. She's really trying to pretend it's always just been the two of us so she's been being nicer and gone from ignoring me to acting like I'm the sunshine of her life! And I hate it!
I met up with Katie at school instead of walking since I was too tired after last night, falling asleep at 4am probably isn't the best idea for the first day back at school but I spent the whole night imagining what it would be like to find him again. since he disappeared that's been my wish on all my birthday candles and shooting stars but now I think I've given up.
Katie knows how I feel but also doesn't, her parents are happy, her parents are together and thriving while mine are pretending the other has never existed and the other has been gone for 3 years!
As Katie and I were walking to class, she told me all about her summer holiday; Something about Hawaii and Greece, but truth be told I wasn't listening to a thing she was saying.
Even though I had given up on making a choice, I still had a gut feeling, I knew it was something that I had to do; And that was to Find him!
