Te amaré, pase lo que pase.

After Unexpected

                        Chapter 1:
                                    It's You

I've read hundreds of novels in my life, most of them claiming that love is the center of the universe.
That it could heal any damage inside of us.
That it is what we need to survive.
From Darcy to Heathcliff, I thought they were fools.
That love was something fictional, only found in worn pages of a book.
But that has all changed since I met her, I never thought I would find myself completely and utterly consumed by another until her.
She took my hand and led me out of the darkness and showed me that whatever our souls are made of, hers and mine are the same.
You once asked me who
I loved most in the world.
It's you.

                               Chapter 2:
                              Losing Two

Life, something people take for granted.
Bonding to a point where loosing someone makes a person loose themselves.
You completed the inner me, spending all my time with you yet all I ask god for is one more second, all I ask is to see your figure, not in white shroud's but in my white shirts.
Washing your cold bodies, yet my body wanted to wash away in tears of blood.
Seven feet underground, I thought to myself, is this my final goodbyes.
A graveyard yard, a two feet grave carved up in sand.
If I could, I would dig myself next to you and lay there for the rest of eternity.
All I ask is to experience a single memory of ours again, all I ask is two persons out of seven billions, is that too much to ask for?
Your memory is my keepsake,
with which we'll never part.
God has you in his keeping,
I have you in my heart.

In the darkness of my mind, heart and soul, I lost the purpose of being alive.
Racing heartbeats pounding out of my body making it impossible to breathe, sweating from the heat, yet I'd get chills from the air, dizziness every time I'd stand on my feet leaving me with panic attacks.
Insomniac and restlessness nights, every time I'd close my pupils I'd get visions of you.
Addiction to sleeping tablets, taking a dozen pills to knock myself unconscious.
This was my only way of coping with the pains in my heart and soul.

And then one day
Someone walks into your life, a total stranger, and they become so important to you.
And while you've only known them for a short time, you feel like you have known them for a lifetime.
Out of the kindness and thoughtfulness of your being you had checked up on me and guided my heart, you held my hand, guided me through the dark and into the light.
You were that bright light I needed in my darkest of days.
I thought to myself, how'd a person with many faults as me find an angel like you.

                                Chapter 3:
                            Ordinary Dream

Loosing my brother, the darkness overtakes all those contended feelings.
The thought of being happy again slowly disappears, during the dark hours of my life.
Nightmares on a daily making it impossible to get a good dream, then one day I got lucky, the dream I wanted came, not just any dream, the best dream I ever had in my lifetime.
I woke up excited, happily from what I saw, I rushed out of my bed and took my black notebook on the side table, I started to dot down what I had seen, at the end of my planning I had a brainstorm and started to write, closing my pupils and revising my memory of the dream.
Getting flashbacks and visions, writing down those minor to major details.
This is what I came up with.

                         The Starry Sunset

This beautiful dream wasn't an ordinary dream. Going down memory lane, I saw this beautiful sky in shades of monochrome colors.
The background of this dreamscape's imagery were mountainside's, the sun dropping in the center of these colors making the sun gaze like a drop of orange in a bright light reflecting the other colors, a sunset is the sun's fiery kiss to the skies.
A steep slope going uphill, an exquisite tree with olive green leaves being blown by a subtle breeze of wind to resemble the starry sunset.