Remember me ~Nomin

19

It became darker and we collected some wood for the fire pit.
We sat around it warming up a little.
Jaehyun- like every year we go round saying what we are grateful for the most this year so far.
Taeyong- I am grateful for my beautiful husband and all the joy he brings me throughout the year.

Ten smiled leaning his head on his shoulder

Ten- I'm grateful for the family I've made with you all. Even if it has been almost 3 years. I'm grateful for us growing together and always sticking together when someone needs us.

Jaehyun- I'm grateful for the the American health care system that performed a hysterectomy on my husband and making sure he was healthy throughout his recovery.
Taeil- I am grateful for these doctors as well but I'm grateful for my husband being there for me through it all. Like in his wedding vows he promised to love me male or female snail or slug and he's always fulfilled that.

These were literally making me tear up. Everything was so raw and emotional

Wooyoung- I'm grateful for San and all the guys back home for accepting me into their family when I had lost mine in the accident and for sans parents raising me properly when they didn't have to.

San - I'm so grateful that wooyoung has stayed with me I guess...last year I assaulted him that ended him with a broken leg and I would never have expected him to take me back after that but he did. Even when I had more and more diagnosis's he looked past them and managed to find the person I want to be in here somewhere. He brings out the best in me all the time and I'm so glad he never left.

Jeno- I'll go next. I'm grateful for all of you. I'm grateful for you all keeping jaemin strong for me whilst i wasn't here and whilst i was too busy thinking only about myself. I'm grateful for jaemin finally taking me back after everything and after that horrid scene he witnessed in my own house with my dad. I'm grateful that somehow jaemin found a way to keep on going after the torture literally and from myself and he waited for me.

Me- fuck sake mines going to sound like shit you you guys.
I'm just grateful I'm still here. There was countless times I sat in that house by myself thinking would anybody even notice if I wasn't here ?
I'm grateful for taeil and jaehyun and jeno who saved me that night. I'm grateful that besides what I look like on the outside jeno still loves me for who I am on the inside. Even if the ugly scars are included.

I wrapped up closer to him when Johnny and Alexis were heard coming around the corner.

Me- oh god
Alexis - proof or it didn't happen jaemin.
Jaehyun- proof ? Johnny is she joking ?!
Johnny- I don't think so ... ?
Taeil- we had to sit in a pool of jaemins blood and she wants proof ?
Alexis- it never really happened did it ? That's why you're being so defensive!
Jaehyun- I think you need to take her home Johnny.
Me- she can stay out of my house.
Johnny- guys chill it's not that deep.

I stood up putting my shorts on and passed everyone theirs. They wrapped the blankets tighter around them and I sighed sitting back down for Renjuns and Doyoungs.

Renjun- okay ! This year so far I have been grateful for all of you this year. More grateful towards jaemin and my boyfriend specifically.
After I found out about my condition I felt sc-
Alexis- you're such a liar ! There's nothing wrong with you! You just wanted to be a girl so you decided to have it done ! No disease needed !

Renjun froze on the spot and couldn't say anything.
I stood up dragging Johnny and his bitch of a girlfriend up. I thought she was alright as well minus the stripping.

Johnny- don't fucking touch me
Me- get the fuck away honestly. You know this tradition better than my left hand Johnny and your letting your bitch ruin this for us !!
Alexis- I'm hardly the fucking bitch you two just can't admit facts it's like completely unreal. You have to lie for attention. How pathetic.

I reached into my waistband pulling my gun out. Why I thought I'd bring it to the beach I don't know but I did.

Me- leave .

I held it to Alexis first and she just kept ranting. One shot.
Nobody reacted I pointed it at Johnny
Johnny- you wouldn't dare. You're dating my brother for fuck sake you think he'll want anything to do with you if you kill his brother?

I looked behind me and taeyong jeno and they had mark on the phone as well as sungchan and jisung. They all looked away. The most formal way of saying yes to a family member being murdered.
One shot
Two shot.

Jisung and mark went off as soon as it was over and I sat back down.
They all seemed fine.

Renjun - shit where was I ... oh umm after I found out I didn't know what to do but I was so scared. Doyoung was there for me through thick and thin. Jaemin offered us protection since then. They've both helped me with huge steps in my recovery.
And I'm grateful for the opportunity to carry my own child and to be able to make our family whole. To provide an heir for Doyoung and the support jaemin has given me in stepping down is immense. He even fixed broken bonds between Japan and china so my brother could be happy and safe.
Winwin- wait what?
Renjun- I'm stepping down win. You're going to take over instead of me. Jaemin fixed bonds so you and Yuta didn't have to worry about this.
Winwin- why though ?
Renjun- if I get pregnant I cannot risk something happening to both his parents. Or one day he wakes up and gets told both his parents have been injured. That screwed us up with mom and I wouldn't be able to do that to my own kid

Winwin got up kneeling down in front of Renjun hugging him tightly.
Everyone's has so much go on this past year and we didn't even realise the extent of some things until now

Doyoung- I think it's my turn now... I'm grateful for jaemin as well. He's stepped up for my mafia this past year. He's protected Renjun and me despite everything that's happened to him as well.
I'm also grateful for the love of my life. He's stayed strong through his surgeries, the judgement, the hormones and the ivf. Things that happened before me met he's been able to share them all with me so I can understand and respect him more
I want to spend then rest of my life with him so...
He reached into his pocket getting down on one knee.
I quickly grabbed my phone
Doyoung- so huang Renjun will you make me the happiest man in this world and marry me?
Winwin - yes !
Doyoung stood up blubbing like a baby putting the ring on winwins finger.
They kissed and winwin was crying into his chest.
The wind had started to pick up and sand blew into the fire putting it out.
We all grabbed our things and me and jeno stayed behind picking all the rubbish we've accidentally dropped and putting things like the chairs where we found them.
Jeno- are you okay ?
Me- yeah I'm good. I just really want to go swim.
Jeno- you can't Jae-
Me- yeah I know I can't my backs still cut open at the top I know.
Jeno- it's just because you don't want it to scar
Me- would you like to be covered in scars jeno or at least as many as I have ?
Jeno- no one care about your scars Jae. You're beautiful with or without them. The ones on your arms and abdomen aren't ugly and horrible. They're proof of the battles you've fought to be here today.
The ones on your back show your stronger than all of us.
Me- fuck you've just really turned me on
Jeno- hurry up and let's get home then.

He picked me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist pulling his face closer to mine. He walked us to where all our cars were parked.

Renjun- get a room !

He unlocked the car and I sat in the passenger seat. He started the car and we pulled out after everyone else. We had about an hours drive before we got home and I genuinely couldn't wait anymore