I Want You To Want Me [Tamber] Wlw

jealousy

[A/N sorry for not updating in awhile I just haven't had the motivation to write I'll try to get back into it and I hope yall like this next chapter I tried making it longer since it's been awhile]

I haven't spoken to tara in a week. I've been ignoring her calls,texts, and mindy, who she keeps sending to talk to me. I know i have no right to be mad at my best friend because of a comment made by someone else, but I am, and I don't plan on being the one to apologize this time.
  
I haven't hung out with any of our friends either to avoid both Tara and wes. I just ended up at some table with ethan and Quinn baily, these new students who moved here from New york. They were bickering over something dumb i felt like I was gonna throw up at the cliche sibling arguments, "nuh uh," the boy whined "yeah huh" the the girl mocked going back and forth like some Disney Channel argument I felt like my brain was rotting just hearing it.

"Hey Amber, right?" A familiar voice beams behind me. I look back to see Beverly standing awkwardly. "Never heard of her," I deadpan already annoyed by this entire situation she only giggled in response it was repulsive, "well seriously I need to talk to you." She mumbles the uncomfortable demeanor returning."oooOooh, are you like in love with her or something?" Quinn raised her eyebrows, smirking earning a laugh from ethan. "Shut up, Quinn." I retort, getting up and following behind the nervous blonde, making our way over to the less crowded library.

"What is it you need?" I sigh, looking back to the blonde standing in front of me. "You can totally tell me if this is overstepping, but is it my fault you and tara aren't friends anymore?" She looked down."What?" "Well I just noticed you stopped talking, and she looks sad, and you look.. uhm, not great, and I just thought what I said caused an argument or something I don't know. Sorry." She ranted, looking back to me. I can't help but laugh, earning a strange look from the blonde. "I appreciate the concern, but it's not really your business, nor your fault, so don't worry about it," i say dryly and leave.

The second week had passed just like the first no tara, no wes, no mindy. Tara stopped trying at this point, which pisses me off she never even tried to talk to me once she just sent texts, and a clearly biased mindy no effort, no friendship and she's proven to no longer want to be friends then "Hey amberrr" Quinn smirked "what." I say clearly annoyed."You know that little friend of yours, tara, is it..." I only glare in response, tired of her and tired of everyone talking about tara she continues talking anyway, though,"so I heard that she and what's his face broke up" I look at her weirdly knowing she isn't dating anyone but knowing who the gossip is about "wes?q Yeahhh, that was his name. She could totally do better. I don't know what she was doing with that asswhole," she rolled her eyes. I agree, but she was never dating him, although I am curious what the rumor stems from and why Quinn doesn't like him either.

"What did wes do to you?" Ethan snears, sitting down beside his sister. "Nothing, to me personally at least, but things I've heard about him.." She trails off, looking back to his table. "Stop being so mysterious, Quinn. We're losing interest." Ethan whines she glares in response."Jeez chill. Have you ever heard of good storytelling? " she retorts, "I heard he was cheating on tara." She rolls her eyes.

"What do u look so annoyed about amber?" Ethen cocks a brow

"Nothing"

"You obviously look annoyed stop being difficult" Quinn rolls her eyes again. to tired to deal with them interagating me for more things to gossip about, I get up and leave heading to the library.

When I enter, I go in the horror section that no one's ever in and sit down putting on my headphones and playing my music, trying to drown out the noise of everyone around me talking, laughing, and just being happy. I hate it. I hate the way I can be so miserable, and everyone around me just continues to exist. I sigh and grab a book off the shelf it's some random Stephen King one I've never heard of. I flip threw some pages before I feel a kick to my leg. I move to a criss-cross position, assuming I'm in the way just to feel another light kick. I look up to see tara looking down at me. "Hey.." She mumbles.

"Look, I'm not some back up for Wes, so if you're talking to me because of whatever happened between you two, don't." I say quietly, getting up, standing over her now."That's not.." I can't help but laugh, earning a few weird looks from the people at the nearest table. "Really, tara, I don't care." I sigh she only looks at me again with these sad puppy eyes it only makes me feel sad again.

I turn to leave, but a grip on my wrist keeps me from doing so "amber talk to me. please, I've been trying to text you and call giving you space. You're ignoring me, and I don't even know why or what I did. im sorry, please just stay.." She begs I look back at her, frowning the tears in her eyes, and the sad look on her face only brakes my heart more. i wrap my arms around her resting my head on hers, and mumbling a series of I'm sorrys. I feel so stupid. I know she never meant to hurt me. I just can't help but feel hurt by her being with other people. I'm a jealous freak.

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