The night we met.

Dear diary.

Continue Dear diary.

Dear diary,

Today was the best day of my life! Louis and I decided to get a flat together! I love him so much! Well you know I like him so much! You know I don't really know what I feel for him, he's a great lad and very handsome ofc.

Louis laughed at that. And smiled at the thought that Harry thought he was handsome.

Louis read on.

Dear diary,

Today we started our world tour and the band is doing awesome people all over the world love us! Louis and I cuddle sometimes and he's so warm I just want to cuddle with him all the time!

Louis smiles remembering the first time he asked Harry for a cuddle but he read on.

Dear diary,

Today I'm feeling scared. I think I've realized I like Louis. More than mates, and I don't know if I'm ever going to be able to tell him because he's straight!

Louis frowns at that. Harry had a crush on him? Louis was shocked.

Dear diary,

I still havnt told Louis I have a crush on him or ask him out yet but I do plan on doing it soon! I'm really exhausted from tour so I think I'm gonna head to sleep :)

Louis smiles. Remember how much Harry used to love to sleep.

Dear diary,

Today was horrible but I didn't let the other boys know. On stage tonight I read a sign that said "Harry's a faggot, get him out of One Direction" it hurt to read and made me want to cry but I couldn't, I didn't want Louis to see me cry.

Louis frowned, he doesn't remember ever seeing that sign and if he did he would have definitely said something.

Dear diary,

Today was the worst day of my life. I never wanted to move out of Lou, and I's place. They made me. I never wanted to keep secrets from the band. They made me. All I wanted was to love and to be in love, but I guess that's never going to happen for me is it.

Louis perked up reading this, it couldn't be true could it? Who made him?

Louis put the diary down. Ran out of the bedroom and to the living room where the other boys sat.

"Louis what is it?" Niall asks looking concerned.

Tears were now flowing out of his eyes.

"We where wrong, we where all wrong."

"Louis what the hell are you talking about?" Zayn asks.

Louis runs up to the room to grab the diary. And runs back downstairs. Hands the book to Liam.

"Y'all ready that"

And so the boys did with Louis looking at them. When the caught up to where Louis is he snatched the book away.

The boys were in tears.they had treated Harry like shit leading up to his death. 

"There's more" Louis said.

"D-do you want to read it together Lou?" Niall asks tears in his eyes.

"Let's do it"

Dear diary,

It's been a week since I had to do what no one else should ever have to do. The boys won't even look at me during rehearsal because of what I did to Louis. It's getting rough, but for the sake of all of our careers I have to stay strong.

Dear diary,

It's so lonely in this flat. I don't have anyone to talk to. I'm lonely.

Dear diary,

Today a fan asked me if I was okay, I said yes. She looked at me and said "why lie, we can all see if Harry" I didn't know what to say so I just cried in her arms.

Dear diary,

Today was the roughest, I tried to talk to Lou but he didn't even spare me a glance. Maybe I deserved this? I don't know anymore. These past few weeks all I've had was an Apple, and a bottle of water a day. It's all I could stomach. My DOC diagnosed me with depression. But I don't want to kill my self? Or do I? I don't know anything anymore.

Louis looked at the page and could see tear droplets. Which made him sob even harder.

The boys were in the midst of a crying sesh when their phone rang.

"Simon?" Liam asnwers and puts it on speakerphone.

"Listen I know you're still mourning but I have a band to run. Tomorrow you have an interview with James cordon on the late late show."

"Fuck no" Louis says.

"You have no choice Louis" and Simon hangs up.

TIME SKIP. Tomorrow.

"HELLO!!!! And welcome to the late late show, I'm James cordon your lovely British host, and tonight we have a very special guest, or should I say guests. HERE IS ONE DIRECTION EVERYBODY!"

The crowd goes absolutely ballistic.

The boys walk out and take a seat on the couch.

"Hey boys" James says. Looking at the boys sadly.

"Hey James" Liam says.

"So it's been 3 months since the youngest of you has passed away. Harry styles. I miss him. I know you miss him. The world even misses him." James says.

"We do, you have no idea how much" Louis says.

"Well bo- James was cut off by a screeching sound by an audience member.

"James! I have something for everyone to watch! It's important!" A crowd member says!

"Well I don't usually do this but okay?"

He comes down and puts the CD into the player.

And what comes next shocks the boys and the whole world.

There is Harry styles.

"Hello boys, Louis, James. World even. 9 months ago I was asked to come into Simon cowell's office, I didn't know what for but he had always seemed to get on. I walked in. He asked me about some personal things and I told him the truth. I am gay and I fell for my band member Louis Tomlinson. Seconds later he told me that he already knew from Elanour Calder. Who was supposed to be my friend but ended up with Louis. He made me sign a contact to never speak about being gay. He forced me to move out of Louis's and I flat. And he said if I ever told anyone about this he would make sure that one direction seassd exist and make sure the boys could never sing again. I wouldn't let that happen. So i signed the contact. 3 months ago i was in a car crash. And I died. Of so you thought. I am well and I am alive and I'm on my way to New York right now.

Everyone in the world knew that Harry styles was alive.

Louis Tomlinson realized in that moment, that he loved Harry styles too.