The Only Hope for Me is You (Nico di Angelo x Reader)

Darkness

(A:N. Ok so everyone says that the song "Demons" by Imagine Dragons is Nico's like theme song.I highly disagree.Their is others songs out their that fit him.This is also going to be a really depressing chapter just for warning.
SELF HARM FOR WARNING!!!)

Darkness 

 Nico has been depressed.He has been through Tartarus and back alone. The seven almost left him in the jar to die just because there wasn't enough time. He trusted his hero ,Percy Jackson, with the life of his sister. Then he brought the news that she died. He doesn't remember his life before the lotus casino. But his mother was killed by Zeus and Hades didn't have enough time to save her with a magical bubble thing of darkness.

His life is a living hell. He was depressed to say the least. He felt like the entire world was turning into darkness and surrounding him.But you chased out the darkness. You were like an angel in disguise to him.

Right now everyone was at training but he was sitting at the base of a tree near the arena where you were training. He was reading a book in Italian, for his father Hades had convinced him to read it in his natural language.Nico has also noticed that campers have been giving him weird looks and worried looks, But he just brushed it off.He was the son of Hades.Was he not?

He was reading ''The Hunger Games'' and was very deep into it. Then you walked over to him. He folded the corner of the page and looked up at you. He wanted to smile and say 'Hi' but all he did was stare with an emotionless face.Then you started to get worried a bit.

''Hey Nico.What's up?'' You spoke and smiled. He smiled a bit but it was very obvious he was forcing it.He took in a long, sharp breath and sighed.

"Nothing much..." He lied. He just didn't want to put all of his depression and stress on you.He was really dying on the inside and he was cutting.He lost all hope to keep his sanity alive. So he got a pocket knife and painted his canvas.But this is no ordinary canvas or paintbrush.For the canvas is his pale skin and the paintbrush is the pocket knife. And what may the paint be? Why, that is his own blood.

He does it for relief. To feel that he is alive. He has just been depressed for so long that it caught up to him and killed him.It killed the person he used to be.It even killed the person he was around you.It killed everything he had. Even his sister.

You looked him in the eye and saw he was lying.He looked like he was about to cry. You thought he wouldn't like to do that out here so you thought that maybe he would like it a little more private. So you thought that maybe he would like it a bit more.

"Nico...Can we go into my cabin for a bit?" You asked. He nodded his head slightly motioning a "Yes" nod. So you took his hand and dragged him to your cabin. You opened the door hoping Percy wasn't there, and just for your luck he wasn't. You sat down on your bed and motioned for him to sit next to you. He did so.

"Nico...I noticed you have been getting depressed...Oh and Nico..." You trailed off. He hummed in response. You sighed and took in a deep breath.

''You wore a short sleeved shirt today..." You said in a calm voice as you could.he panic and looked down to see in matter of fact he was.Everyone just saw his scars.Old and new.He forgot to grab his jacket today...Oh how one little mistake could make you trip into a never ending hold of darkness...

''(Y-Y/N) I c-can explain.!" He tried to speak.But you both knew their was nothing to explain.This was no accident. For they decorated his arm like it was a painting. Nico felt something wet dripping down his cheeks.He new what they were but he just didn't feel like wiping them off.You got up and got a tissue and wiped off his tears for him. You took notice that his face was blank.But his eyes showed everything he has held in him.

"Shh...Nico... It is alright...I don't think any less off you...Shh....Calm down..." You cooed him in to calming down.He wasn't sobbing but he was crying like he just saw his lover get shot. You rubbed soothing circles on his back while cooing him.You then slowly got out of the hug and looked him in the eyes.

"Nico.I want to help you. I understand it isn't easy but let me help...Will you let me?" You asked.

"Yeah...I will let you help...But...Cutting...It just makes me feel alive.Makes me now I am here and that I have a beating heart with blood.Please don't take that away...It is an addiction..." He begged in a voice like broken glass.

"Nico...I am sorry but I am going to have to...You might kill yourself doing that...I won't risk it...Sorry..." You said.You saw he panicked and he looked like you just stabbed him in the heart.

"Please...Don't... I want to feel alive...Again..." He said in between breaths.This time he really was crying.

"Nico...I know it isn't easy but please tell me does this make you feel alive?" You asked.Before he even had a chance to think you kissed him.Not just a normal peck here and their.You french kissed him. You both pulled away breathless.

"Yeah... It did..." He answered honestly. After that you then hugged him.

"If you ever feel like you need to...Paint...Just come to me...If I am alseep wake me the bloody hell up then...Alright? We are going to tell Chrion about this so he can get the harpies to dismiss you if you are coming over and so we can be alone in a cabin...Ok?"You explained.

"Ok." He answered.

(A/N: Sorry about this being a long chapter.Their is going to be a part II to this)