My beloved Wife
I don't know how I can tell you how much I love and care about you. Days go by I can't even recognize time. I wanted to love you with all my heart and I still do. I wanted to quit smoking and blowing I needed some break. I know you wanted me to stop, but you changed your mind you know how stressed I've gotten over these past weeks. I know who I am and I know what I want and all I want is you. I know I can be toxic and I simply can't get you out of my mind. I needed to sing my mind off you gave me the courage together with some other friends. You needed some time with me and I needed some time with you. Not a day goes by not wanting to hold you and tell you everything will be alright. I wanted to sing to you to say it will be all okay. I will sing Candy Rain only for you because you are my Candy Rain. I could relate to the lyrics and sing for you no matter the hurt I've been through. Still music and writing this love letter to you I hope I can reach the stars with this. Diamonds was a beautiful song it reminded me of how diamonds glow in the night. You're shining like one and many are shining, only 2 stars stayed together, and that was us. The glow that you gave me was anti-depression-worthy. You've fallen first, but I've fallen harder. Even in my darkest nights, I feel like falling over and over again. Nights don't feel darker than this because I heard you even in my darkness. I got over this because you made me feel worthy again, no God needed. You've felt my loss of energy and I only needed you to make me feel like something. because you've gotten me out of my own world, days go by that I can't think about your cute face even when I didn't even see it fully. You've got my heart and soul and needed a soulmate, not a friend only. Let's stay together until the day we die. I wanted to make memories with you, grow old with you, make babies with you, and go on a van life trip. I know we have our ups and downs but every time I hear you're voice you make me happy, I can't stay mad at you for long. I can feel you're tears when I can't even cry, when I couldn't feel or hear you loud enough I felt I was getting lost. I feel hopeless and not worth it, that's why I keep trying to go on. I didn't want to die anymore I want to give you my all I don't want to give us one chance I give you unlimited chances. I fell for you even when I wasn't fully myself that's why I want to give you my all because I know who I am now. Your hubby and I went crazy because I was made crazy I wanted to feel all of you and give you all of me. I need all of you again we are fading slowly our bond needs to be restored. I will fight and that's why I keep on going I wont stop, I will never stop. Love is above everything.
I truly love you Wifey never forget that even when all other people say otherwise.
Love truly,
Your hubby Khalani Shakur