𝐎𝐧𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬 (𝑴.𝑹. ~ 𝑴𝒂𝒕𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒐 𝑹𝒊𝒅𝒅𝒍𝒆)

Help me, darling

A/n: requested by notu12 I'm sorry it's short I just really suck at writing this kind of stuff and it's more like panic attack one shot I hope it's okay♡

MATTHEO'S POV

I'm having another episode. My grades have been dropping and my father is not happy about that so I also get tortured.

And on top of everything I almost don't even hang out with Y/n anymore. I'm probably hates me now.

I haven't left my room for 5 days and I don't know what's even happening in school but she probably moved on.

I didn't spent any time with her in the past two weeks. She probably found a new boyfriend. The one that will treat her better.

She probably realized I don't deserve her, that she's too good for me. She's probably gone off with new boyfriend.

His arms wrapped around her waist like mine have always been. I can't help but feel jealousy.

Cause no one is going to love her more then I did but they will treat her better then I ever will.

Without even realizing it my breathing became heavy. I was struggling to get my breath.

My hands trembled as I felt like lungs don't exist. The tears were now going down my cheaks.

I drop now to floor with my back against the bed. I was sobbing and sniffling while my breath was getting shorter every second.

I was thinking maybe this is the end. Maybe it's time for me to give up. Upon all of this maybe it's best if I'm not alive.

Just then my door opened and there she stood with that beautiful smile with was soon replaced by face of worry.

"Mattheo, what? Oh, shhhhh" she immediately run over to me as my arms couldn't help but wrap around her as I sobbed.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry for everything, for not spending time with you" I sobbed holding onto her tightly.

I was afraid if I let her go she'll disappear. "Mattheo, don't apologize it's okay, I'm sorry for not checking up on you I thought you just wanted a bit time alone to sort everything out, I'm so so sorry but I'm here now" she whispers trying to calm me down.

"I'm sorry for being like this, I never opened to anyone. I'm just- having a tough time and my overthinking got to me and I just-" I sob even more at this point.

"It's okay, Mattheo, it's okay, shhh" she hugs me. "But it's not, I don't deserve you, you are amazing and I am shit whose life is falling apart" I say looking her in the eyes.

"Don't you dare ever say that, I have never met the sweetest person then you, you make my day amd make me feel like no one else can so stop t cause I'm not leaving you ever" she says looking at me dead in the eye.

"Now get your ass on the bed so we can cuddle" she says trying to pick me up as I chuckle slightly.

I get up and push her with me on the bed as we fall laughing. We roll so we're facing each other.

"Thank you" I say smiling. "Of course" she says smiling leaning her forehead against mine.

"I'm not leaving someone I love more then anyone" she whispers kissing my lips slowly as I place my hand on her cheak.

I kiss her back with a bit more passionately but still wanting it to stay cute. We smile through the kiss and slowly pull away.

My arms wrap around her waist as I pull her closer and we fell asleep cuddling smiling. She's my soft space.

THE END