Unconditional #Wattys2015

The Blackout

"We're here, finally!" Whisper said, falling on the couch in our college dorm, I laughed at her, not understanding why she was so happy.

"How can you be so happy about this? You aren't gonna see Nathan in God knows how long." I said, flabbergasted by her enthusiasm, she walked over to me, putting her hands on my shoulders.

"Joy, we don't need guys to make us happy. Nathan doesn't mean anything to me." She said, tears filling her eyes. I was completely confused at this point and just hugged her.

"What happened, Whisper? Did you two break up?" I spat questions at her, trying to get down to the bottom of these tears. She nodded and I felt anger build in my chest. Did he, seriously, just stay with her over the summer then ditch her the moment things got hard? "What? Why would he do this to you?" I asked, keeping my voice even.

"I broke up with him..." She explained. I took her face in my hands... I knew my best friend was crazy but what would possess her to break up with him? "I don't trust him, Joy. He's so far from me and I know that he's gonna cheat! I refuse to be played!" She explained, now angry.

"What the heck, Whisper? Why would you even lead him on and make him feel like you cared about him if you knew you were gonna break up with him before you left?" I asked, I knew she was going to try to defend herself so I put my finger up to stop her. "And don't pretend you didn't know you were going to end it before it even started, Whisper! I know exactly how you think. Did Aliiyah know about this?" I asked. She looked down and I walked away, ready to pull my own hair out. How are my best friends so stupid.

"Why are you so mad about this, it was my decision, Joy." She said, walking over to me. If looks could kill, she'd be six feet under right now.

"Whisper, You did exactly what I was so scared Jeremy was going to do to me! Nathan cares about you and you knew you were going to hurt him yet you still did it!You know what, you're right. It was your stupid decision, and when you try to get back with him when we all go home for Christmas break, don't be surprised if he has a new girlfriend." I told her, knowing my words would cut deep. She started crying again, and pulled her phone out.

"I have to get back together with him!" She started saying, but I snatched her phone away from her. "What are you doing, Joy? He could be making out with someone as we speak!" She started crying and I hugged her again, stroking her hair.

"You need to give him a little time, we can plan a long speech for him that will get him back. But, for now let's see what parties we can go to and let's get shit faced." I said, trying to distract her. It worked because she was now looking at me with the scheming twinkle in her eyes. Classic Whisper.

We ended up finding a party a few dorms down from ours that started at 10 so, for the next two hours, we did our hair, makeup, nails, and picked out cute outfits. Jeremy had called me when he got home and talked to me about how angry and Sad Nathan was and said that they're going to a party to distract him and when I told him we were doing the same, he laughed and claimed "great minds think alike". After getting off the phone with Jeremy, Whisper started getting anxious so we took a couple shots before going to the party at 11:00. being late gives you the chance to make an entrance.

"Remember, Whisper. We aren't here to meet guys, we're here to have some fun and to take your mind off Nathan. Got it?" I clarified. I never looked for guys at parties but my best friend had a habit of always bring one or two home. She laughed, and nodded.

"Joy, Whisper! I'm glad y'all could make it!" The host, Natalie, greeted us. She had on a black, tight dress, similar to Whispers except she had red heels and Whisper had cheetah print heels and a cheetah cover up. I was wearing ripped skinnys, and a white and black stripped tank top with black heels.

"Hey, thanks for inviting us!" Whisper said and we both gave her a hug and kiss on the cheek. One of Whisper's little boy toys from previous parties came up to her and dragged her to the dance floor. She looked at me, smirking and shrugged. I just laughed, shook my head, and dragged my sober ass over to the kitchen. I made myself a tequila and orange triple sec margarita in a giant glass, after drinking this I should, at least have a strong buzz.

I walked over to the couches, squeezing in between a mass of drunk, sweaty, dancing, college students. When I sat down, there was a guy on the opposite side of the couch that scooted closer to me when he saw me sit down. He wasn't ugly, he had short, blonde hair with brown eyes, and tan skin.

"Would you like to dance with me, love?" He asked, his British accent thick. I smiled at him, politely but shook my head.

"No, I'm taken sorry." I told him. He looked around.

"Where is your boyfriend? If you were mine, I wouldn't ever let you be lonely." He said, his face now closer to my ear. I turned my face away from his then stood up, looking back down at him.

"Well I'm not yours. I'm someone else's and that's the point." And with that, I found Whisper, kissing her boy toy and told her I was going home. I guzzled down my drink and left the glass in Natalie's kitchen.

As I was walking back to my dorm, I started feeling dizzy and when I got to it and put my hand on the door knob, I passed out.

When I woke up, I was in a dark blue room with white covers around my naked body. Wait, how did I get here? There was sunlight, coming from the large window, behind the bed. I stood up, wrapping the covers around my body and felt a warm liquid between my thighs where I felt excruciating pain, tears began to fall down my cheeks as the realization hit me. Have I been raped?

There was a bathroom connected to the room and i went in, wiping the blood between my thighs off with a wet paper towel, I put my clothes back on and left the room, finding myself in an apartment I walked out and ran down the stairs until I was out of the building, I called and went back to my dorm. The apartment was only 3 miles from my college.

"How are you going to tell me not to go home with a guy then you leave without even calling and letting me know where you are going? This is so irresponsible, Joy. I was worried si--" Whisper started yelling when I came in the door until she saw my face. I looked in the mirror, there was a big bruise on my right cheek and a cut on the top of my head, tear streaks were on my face. I looked back at my best friend, fresh tears running down my face.

"I was raped."