Close Your Eyes

Sleepless Nights

Peta was sitting in the living room area of the bus. She could hear all the noises of the rest of her tour mates sleeping peacefully in their bunks but she was beyond frustrated with herself. It was about three weeks into the tour and her claustrophobia had set in hardcore that night in her bunk. She was exhausted but every time she got into her bunk her anxiety kicked in and a panic attack would begin until she got of the bunk and sat out on the couch. She knew she needed sleep but she was ready to just give up and sleep on the couch. She wasn't too thrilled about having to explain everything to anyone though because she felt stupid with it considering she had been fine up until now. She clutched her phone in her hand wishing it wasn't so late so she could at least text Maks for a little bit and maybe settle down. She looked at the time once more and closed her eyes. Should she do it or not? She let out a frustrated breath before opening up her iMessage and sending Maks a quick text.

'Hey...' She only had to wait a few minutes before she saw the bubbles pop up indicating he was texting back.

'Hey you, what's up pretty girl? Why you up so late?'

'Can't sleep so I'm hanging out on the couch listening to everyone snore. What are you still doing up?'

'I was watching basketball and the game ended late. You just too amped up from the show or is something else bugging you.'

'The second one.' She said as she tucked her knees into her chest being careful of the weight she was putting on her bad ankle.

'You wanna talk about it?'

'Maybe, I don't know. I feel stupid about it.'

'Babe, you know you can tell me anything.'

'I know...it's just, this came out of nowhere, I've been fine these three weeks and I don't know what happened to start this up again.'

'Are you worried about us?'

'God, baby, no! I mean I miss you and I hate being away from you this much but I know we're good. We're in a much better place this time and I trust us. And I'll see you soon right?'

'Yup, few more days and then you'll be trapped with me in that tiny bunk of yours.' She groaned at his tease knowing he was just trying to make her smile even though he had no idea what that bunk was doing to her.

'I'll be so glad to see you but don't remind me of that stupid bunk.' She caved slightly giving him a small clue as to what was bothering her.

'So that's what's bugging you huh?'

'Maybe...'

'Your claustrophobia or can't get settled?'

'The claustrophobia. It's so stupid Maks! I've been fine up until today and now every time I crawl in that bunk I start shaking and I can't breath. I have to get out. And I'm exhausted and we have to be up early tomorrow for some press thing or something. I don't know. I don't mind but I just wanna sleep!'

'You want me to call?' She smiled cause that's exactly what she wanted but everyone was sleeping.

'Everyone is asleep. I don't want to wake them up. And it's late. I shouldn't even be texting you right now. You should be asleep too.'

'Babe, it's alright, you're the one that needs to be up early and I was up anyways. Why don't I call?'

'How am I not going to wake everyone up?'

'Get your headphones, the one with the mic piece. Use that. It'll keep the sound of me from being loud and you can talk soft into the mic.'

'I guess that would work.'