𝙼𝚊𝚐𝚒𝚌 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙼𝚢𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚢, 𝙲𝚘𝚒𝚕 - 𝙾𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚝𝚜 !

Never Leave Your Side.

TW; Selfharm, suicidal thoughts.

Theme; Dazai went too far, and Blaise is there to help. Hurt/comfort.

I listened to Miss Wanna Die while writing this ; ] . 

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Weekends in the Port Mafia were a series of nothingness. Nothing would happen. 

Maybe Mori calls him to try on a dress that didn't fit Elise, and then those dreadful memories would repeat. 

Still, they were an endless loop of dread and emptiness.

But then, weekends in Hogwarts were full of events, not those dreadful events, but nice events.

Talking with Blaise, remedial lessons with Proffesor Snape, Fred and George, Ron, Hermione, Draco, the Hell's Hounds.. all of those things, are nice. 

Dazai had always thought that feelings were gross. Nice isn't a feeling, it's an adjective. 

He had always hated pity.

So, right now, in his state, no one should see. Because they are gonna pity him. 

Blood dripped from his wrist, and fell to the floor, making  tip-tap  sounds. 

''Dazai? What are you.. Oh.''

Blaise's voice. 

Oh no. Ohno. Ohnoohnohnoohnohnohnohnohnohnohnohnohnohonoohon---

''I.. I'll go get a wet cloth.. and some bandages. Stay still, please.'' his voice sounded surprised. 

Blaise had seen. But reacted.. unlike what the Mafioso had anticipated.

Oh no. Why did he even come? 

Dazai stared blankly at his bleeding wrist, then at his other hand, that's holding the blade down. 

He's had a nightmare. A nightmare about the dog kennels. About the Port Mafia. 

He was terrified of dogs. 

They were his second biggest fear. 

He hated them.

And that fear came from Mori. 

Everytime that Dazai disobeyed father, he's get beaten up. Beaten up badly.

And his seventy percent blind eye was proof enough of that.

But Mori's punishments are different. 

A dress. 

Locking him in the kennels.

A kiss, a touch. 

Mori was terrifying.

And that's why Dazai's first biggest fear is from hospitals. Doctors.

He hates Mori. 

Truly does.

He also hates father.

Dazai had always wanted to kill himself, always.

Nothing in the world is more honest than death.

The most honest truth.

''Hey, wanna... talk about it?'' Blaise asked, while putting the cloth lightly, and gently, onto Dazai's wrist. 

Dazai remained silent. What was there to talk about? Nothing.