(This is set about 2 months later your now a pilot for 141 but you have to be tested on your skill and also a TW for: SH related content, death, suicidal thoughts.)
"Shit shit shit, ima pass out" I say quickly over coms knowing I might crash I start climbing so I have room when i pass out.
"COME ON MARS! DONT GIVE UP. YOUR AT 12 G'S!" Ghost said after my words (we are basically best friends not to Bragg)
"I-I'm t-trying..." the line goes blank I go out my speed falling as the g force drops.
"Y/N?- I-I MEAN MARS! WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED?" Silence.. before the storm
"I'm awake." I whisper into the coms line before I say one last word. "Bombs away L.T"
"Bulls eye mars." He was impressed but worried I think everyone was as they watched from the ground
"Head back to base Mars" he almost pleaded.
This man cares about me. And I hated it. Before we move on you should know.
When I was younger and was in the force we were "attacked" by mistake.
After it happened I felt worthless like I was a burden to everyone I hated people showing me love because. Well I thought I cursed people I thought people I loved died.
This lead me to an attempted suicide at 20.
"On my way L.T" i felt bad my mind was racing.
I walked over to the squad after the landing I didn't want to be here. These people actually ca-cared about me?- n-no they can't. No one loves me?
"We thought we lost you y/n.." soap vowed
Fuck these people actually care.
"I never die, seriously you think I'm gonna crash from a small stall?" I said laughing but still fidgeting and picking my skin.
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Back at the barracks I jumped into my hard bed but at this point enything felt better then being with them. They must be faking this. Right?
*knock,knock,knock*
Oh god not now. I CANT deal with this today. I scoffed and got out of bed still in uniform my hair still in a tight military bun.
"Ah mars I just came to see how you were doing you seemed, off earlier." Soap looked at me Praying for answers.
"I am fine" I looked at soap confidently
I know what I have to do. What I do when I'm stressed I have to go for a little ride.
YOU ARE READING
The COD pilot (if call of duty 141 had an air force)
ActionYou get recruited into 141 after your time in the RAF they decided they need pilots and fast but when you get there there is a man who's face gives you shivers. (This won't be realist at all but if you like cod head cannons you will love this)
