Dear fucking diary

BF drama

My boyfriend NC is hiding something
He told our friend something and that friend DW said "oh really, your really thinking about doing that to her" and the same thing happened when I was with my ex DM he hid something from me and to this day exactly two months after we broke up he still hasn't told me no matter what I do. NC always says that I'm not trustworthy bc I hangout with my guy bsf too much. I don't know what he is thinking about doing and I'm scared, I'm really very scared.
He has known me the second most in that school and he's been my friend for three years and I don't want to loose him we've only been dating for one month.
DW asked him if he liked me when I asked him and I didn't hear his answer, ik ur not real but I'm always talking about DM and NC. I also asked him how long he liked me and he said "one month before you and DM broke up" but DW gave NC a side eye which means he heard otherwise and when I asked DW what NC said to him and DW said "He said he's thinking about breaking up with you"

~ June 14th 2023