🥀𝐈𝐧 𝐁𝐞𝐭𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐎𝐮𝐫 𝘔𝘪𝘥 teens🥀

7.

Arjun's POV :(present time)

What the hell is happening with life I don't know anymore... I don't even remember from how many hours I was studying.....

It's probably night right now....
I was studying since afternoon I should take break now....

Just like that I came out of my room in balcony and saw towards our neighbor's house and my mind flooded with old memories climbing that House's Terrace to meet that particular someone.... I remembered the the days of our mid teens

It's been six years to the time when last time I saw her....

Taking deep sigh I move towards my room again just then I saw her room's light was on but her brothers don't go to her room at night as much as I know and I never saw them up there at night...

I m just Overthinking she never wanted to come back once she moved out of this city... She wanted solitude not my thoughts it's her words how this city burdens her....

Let it be Arjun...

Life was peaceful when we were teenagers after 12 th everything changed drastically how, when and why we got so much difference I still don't understand it was so hard to open up for both of us but instead of trying to fix issue she got on her flight mode... That was her habit which I thought was pro for her but it only brought disadvantage in our lives....

I went inside with those thoughts and tried to focus my studies....

But the thoughts of her coming back was consuming me... I don't even know if there is something in me for her now or not... I don't know if I want to see her again or not sometimes I feel like I Never want to see her face, some times I feel like I want her to see how happy I am without her.. And sometimes all I want is to run away with her away from this pressure of society, studies, our insecurities everything..... I don't know anymore how I would deal with situation if she ever come in front of my eyes....

There was time when we used sneak around just take look at each other's face feel each other's present, there was also time when we could not go a day without talking or seeing each other...

I Never thought we will become like stranger in our life I had thought in my mind somewhere about break up and all but I never in nightmares thought about not seeing or talking to her for six long years and look here it become our truth... I heard last week her Bhabhi talking about groom hunting for her... I could not even stand there for more than Second after imagining her with someone who is not me...

But the same time I, myself don't want to be with her... Ahhhhh I am so confused no one can ever tell this , always calm and collected boy can go this crazy in his thoughts for girl that too for the one whom he haven't seen from past six years..

Most of our classmates got married some even have children, some settled in foreign for better life, some are enjoying there life in work and with their parents or partners and here I am still studying it's not like I regret my choices it's just sometimes it's all feel useless but when I see patients getting better living a life which they thought they will loose is great feeling for that feeling I am able to study till age of 26 three years more and after that I will be certificate cardiologist...

My thoughts shifted from her to my career and I started studying as I have to go to hospital in the morning as it's my morning shift tomorrow...

Next day...

I woke up with feeling of tiredness in my whole body.... Still I came out from bed and went towards bathroom to do my morning routine after that I went downstair