Is it to late ?

Today is the day

I looked in my mirror... I looked beautiful in my dress. I was wearing a red dress the color my sister chose for me to wear at her wedding. I never wanted this day to come. I feel sick to my stomach, but I guess I should get use to this because after today I loose him forever. The wedding is in 5 minutes and I should probably go downstairs to the garden and get ready. I tried to smile. I have to remember it does not matter how I feel or what I want in the end I want mate to be happy and if I can't make him happy I sure hope my sister does. I start walking downstairs and I see my sister near the door that leads to the garden she looks so happy and calm. She looks stunning in her wedding dress I envy her right now. I wish that was me waiting to walk down the aisle to my mate. I get in line and stand next to one of the grooms men waiting to walk down. I hear music start to play and I feel my heart starting to get heavy. I slowly walk down the aisle. I see my mate standing there looking all handsome in his tux happy. He looks at me and I look at him knowing that he is thinking the same thing. What if this was us at our wedding and he was marrying me and not my sister? Once I get the aisle I take my place and the rest walk down. Then the song here comes the bride comes on and I see my beautiful sister walk down and I look at the face of my mate and what I saw really hurt me. He was smiling and his eyes held so much love and happiness that it broke me. I wish he would look at me that way with love in his eye. I shouldn't be selfish about this I want my mate happy and no matter what I will risk and do anything to keep him smiling the way he is right now. When my sister goes next to the pope who is marrying them I sit down. The pope starts the ceremony while I block everything out. I don't know why, but I start to have a bad feeling like as if something bad will happen. I look at the back and I see this man looking at angry and he looks like he's crying. He sees me watching and starts to walk forward from behind the tree he was hiding at. I get up from my chair and my mate looks at me alarmed. I look at the back again and so does he. " WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING MARRYING MY MATE!" Yelled the mystery man. I knew then that this wedding is about to get ugly.

SORRY for the long wait I have been really busy with work and school and babysitting my sister that I never had time to write. I feel so bad, but I promise to work on it and will write at least one time a week.