I love her. I actually genuinely love her. But lately I've just been fucking up with her. Fuck up after fuck up. How many chances do I get? Which fuck up will be the last one? At what point will I cross that line? When will she leave? I'm not trying to fuck up it just happens I'm so stupid it's like built into me I can't not destroy my friendships..idk how to be a good friend..so I know I'll fuck up again and be even closer the the time I fuck up and she will walk away. It's coming...and it's so close..
