(a/u: hey pookies sorry for not writing for ages lol)
(tw / spoiler: self harm, angst, trauma shit.)
bennett pov:
lately, razor has been disappeared for some days...
im so worried... my little darling diva... is he gone..? but where..? is he lost in the woods again?
*starts searching for him*
"RAZORR?? WHERE ARE YOU??!!"
there he is.
is he... bleeding?
"... 'razor is useless' why the fuck i even talk like this, this is so stupid.. the adults go; 'oh live your young golden life!!' but i just wanna disappear, i swear if i hear that sentence again im gonna jump off a goddamn building-"
his wrists were cut.
is he doing self harm..?
"RAZOR!! DONT DO THAT TO YOURSELF!! İ LOVE YOU!!"
*he kisses razor, gently, not hurting a bit.*
"seriously?"
"is that true...?"
"OF COURSE İ LOVE YOU İDİOT!!"
...
s i l e n c e .
...
did i just called him an idiot? im such an jerk...
"i-i thought you used me.. you are biting me too much lately.. so like get off.."
"i LOVE you. with all my soul. with all i got, with all my heart, brain, everything!"
"just dont hurt yourself please!! you feeling pain KİLLS me!!"
*hug*
"awh! so cute! i love you darling, razor!"
*razor nods*
"are you hungry, razor?"
"n-no.. im okay. razors ok."
"razor... i dont think you're okay. cmon, lets talk about this. what made you do hurt yourself? what drove you to this?"
"none of your, even nobody's business. none of you patheti- ok nvm. none of you humans should know it."
"why? i will understand!!"
"men are stupid. im done."
wut- i do not understand
"i will eat your organs SO NOW GET OFF OF ME İ NEED A BREAK İ CANT BREATHE."
"o-ok.."
"im just gonna cry:3"
"why are you doing this to me? why are you keeping yourself away from me?! its enough! i love you, i cant think anything else!! please?! YOURE MY EVERYTHI-"
"everyone says that, everyone because they want to make you forgive themselves. in reality, that may or may not be real. maybe you just dont need your lover, you need therapy, you need medicine, food, or anything you THINK you need. when you reject them or say you need some time, they will shout words like; 'i dont care, i dont give a fuck, coward..' humans are cruel. thats the reason i was scared of humans at the basic, pathetic start.. god i dont even know where to start."
... damn.
"ow. that must hurt."
"it hurts way more than you think, or anybody could think. they say these are the golden years of pure teenager years, but they are blind.. i know adult suck, right?"
"no they dont! my parents are really kind-"
"says the adopted child"
"you dont have a family either! you never knew them!"
"yuh. i know from my friend's family, it hurts"
"but i still love you so much.. i need you in my life, dont i?"
"dont you? am i like a drug? am i addicting~?"
"arent you addicting, my dear.. my love.."
*they slowly hold each other, and kiss, under the moonlight, a gentle long kiss, until razor breaks it away*
"i.. i need to breathe."
"what if i dont let you~?"
"i will die and you wont be invited to my slay funeral pookie 🥰🥰"
"oh- ok."
...
"lets kiss more. seriously."
"u sure, razor? then dont say im using you ok?"
"pinky promise."
"ok. 😦"
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hey my pookies i missed yall💔 pls comment i love reading yall comments😞😞 plus i will be rewriting all the chapters and adding details and making them less cringe🥰🥰
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my love for you... is insane {rannett}
Romancei made this at start of 2023 and i hate this bro this story is extremely cringe you have been warned but atleast the old me put some wholesome parts lol [note: if you are reading this story for the first time or started reading nowadays, i quit gens...
