Loving Him is My BEST Decision

CHAPTER-55

Aadhya shared about her past relationship with Evan. After hearing that Evan was so upset. But he tried not to show it outside. Aadhya understood there is something wrong with Evan. She didn't want tp pressurize Evan to say what's disturbing him.

Aadhya p.o.v.,

We both went back to our room. Evan didn't talk anything and went back to his sleep. I don't want to ask him anything. I thought I will ask him in the morning. 

Next day morning, 

I woke up Evan was not in the room. I come out he prepared coffee for me. I searched for him but he is not in the house. So I called him. He said that he was jogging and come to the cottage after an hour. Then he suddenly cut the call.

I don't like this type of attitude. I waited for him. But he came in and not even looked at me. He went to took bath and order food for us. He was eating without talking anything and he is not even looking at my face. I was so sad. I was about to hold his hand to ask him why he is upset?. But he suddenly took his hand. I don't like this kind of attitude.

I decided not to ask him. We both were planning to go a boating. For that we both getting ready. He took the car and I was sitting next to him but he is very silent and I asked him " Why?. What's wrong with you Evan?." He didn't respond. I again asked him. He said " If you going on disturbing me means how can I drive." After I become silent.

We both enter into the boat and Evan was driving the boat. The climate was so good and the breeze was so good.It was so nice to travel in the sea like this. It makes you to feel like you are flying in the ground. I was happily touching the water and splash some water on him. He suddenly shows his face. I don't like that. I got angry and said " Evan, enough. I want to know why are you being upset?. Why are you behaving like this to me?."

He didn't respond. I went to the motor and switch off the motor. We are at the center of the sea.  I again asked him " I want to sort out here and now itself. I want to know what is the reason?."

He said " Nothing" and turned his head. I pulled him towards me and shouted " I want to know the reason".

He looked at me agressively and said " It's all because of you Aadhya?."

I was suprised and asked " What ?. What I did?. What are you saying?."

He asked " Why Aadhya you don't know that really ?."

I said " Yes I don't know."

He said " Then listen Aadhya, I know Anish is your first Love and I don't have anything against him . I am not a person who didn't accept like this kind of the things. Because most of the people in this world are having their first love and maybe some reasons they may broke up. Then they fall for another one and leading a happy life.Isn't it?."

I said " Yes. I agree."

He continued " But you know, I think you are still not come out from Anish."

I asked " Why are you saying like this?."

" Yes Aadhy, it's true. I can see you are not come out from him. You are still living with his memories" he said 

I was shocked. I asked him " How could you talk like this?."

" Aadhya, you are seeing me as who I am . You are always comparing my personality with Anish's personality. You are comparing how I am treating you and how he treated you. Wherever we are going you are knowing and unknowingly thinking about him.

Do you remember, when we are sitting in a lake . You said like this kind of the place where Anish's proposed you.  And when I introduced you as my Lover to my friends that time you said Anish introduce you as his friend to that Venuka's family.  

So you are not seeing me as who I am . You are always comparing me with him. " he said

I was standing silently.

He continued " Aadhya, I know there is something blocking you which make you to stay away from me. You know what that is your Own Fear.  Because whenever you are comparing me and Anish you are comforting your heart that I am not like him. You are putting an ointment to your wound which caused by him in your Heart.

One side it's good and I am happy that I am being your Oinment. But on the other side how many days are you going to use me as your Oinment? and when you come out from your own fears about Love.

I can clearly see that you are scared to give your Heart to me. Because you are having a fear that I might be broke your Heart. So you are staying away from me and using me  to Heal you.

Healing you is not a problem for me. But are you ready to give your Heart to me and let you allow me to Heal your Heart?."

I was standing and tears were filled in my Eyes.

He said " I know Aadhya, it is hard to hear. But I just want to point about your vulnarabilities. It's okay to show me the weaker and ugly side you. I don't judge you. Because I am in Love with you. You know when we are in Love with the person , we don't judge them. We will accept them as they are . Their flaws, strength, weakness, dark, bright and ugly side of them. 

Listen Aadhya, When you stop comparing me with him. And when you come out of him fully . And when you are going to look at me as who I am and accept me as who I am. Then come to me. I will accept you. Until I decided to give some space to you.

Aadhya, There is a Beautiful Life is Waiting for you Outside of your Fears. So , Please be ready to accept that. I will Wait for you until that."

I hugged him tightly and can't stop crying.

Then we decided to go back to back to the room. And after we packed and left the place. We both didn't talk much. Evan was so silent. I was upset and feeling bad towards him.

( Guys, Is it okay to compare the past and present relationship?. Are you feeling angry towards Evan because of his behaviour. Do comment your answers let see what will happen to both of them in The Next Chapter....)

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