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10 | winter ??

*no time because i couldn't think of something that'll work since it's hot during the day and cold at night where i live atm 😭😭

winter ??

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BLUE LOCKERS🔛🔝🔥🔥🔥

you
it's so ducking hot rn
it's not funny
kinda
it rained like
yesterday
but i'm literally
sweating my ass off
rn 😣

nagi
:x
its winter

isagi
they're in another
country nagi

you
😭

nagi
o
its rlly cold

you
turn the heater on wdym

isagi
we've tried to ask ego
he says we'll get warmer
from training 💀

you
nah 💀💀
i could see him saying
that 😭
had a sports teacher like that
hated whenever he'd say that
tbh 😐
ALSO
NO ONE WAS TALKING IJ
THE GC FOR AGES
WHAT HAPPENED

nagi
slept

isagi
we had a christmas break
thankfully...
but we're back now
in blue lock...

you
i can already picture
the colour draining from
your face as you sit
utterly defeated 😭😭

isagi
i don't need to picture
it

nagi
im going 2 bed

nagi is now offline

you
bye
oh
😐😐

isagi
lol

you
where is everyone 😭
meg 😭😭😭😭😭😭

isagi
probably asleep or their
notifications are off
how's australia?
besides the temperature

you
it's been alright
i don't have anyone to
hang out with ☹️
no friends
we stopped talking after i
moved
except two
but they live on the opposite
side of the country
it's sorta isolating lmao

isagi
but you've been having
fun right? did you visit your
cousins?

you
yeah some
only one of my uncles
and aunties
and their kids
plus one of my
older cousins and
her gf
but i haven't rlly done
much ig
i feel kinda lonely
and no one was using the gc
either lol

isagi
sorry

you
it's not your fault 💀💀
im just getting sappy
cuz its late idk
i do that sorry
but seriously
it's not your fault trust 😭

isagi
still
i feel bad that you're
feeling lonely
im more than happy
to talk to you
if i had known, i wouldn't
have turned my notifications
off during the break
and i'm glad you got to see
some family either way

you
thank you isagi
it was good, i haven't seen
them in years
how's blue lock?

isagi
same as ever
except i feel like
i've aged by a couple
of years
kaiser makes me what to
throttle him sometimes 😐

you
kaiser?
like the german guy lol
??

isagi
the german guy, yeah
i heard someone saying
it looked like he was
on the verge of a mental
breakdown or something
i would say i feel bad but i
don't lol

you
💀
jesus
what did he even do
to you

isagi
everything

you
😭
i should probably start going to
sleep now, but it was nice to
talk to you isagi
lolol keep me updated ab that
kaiser fella

isagi
haha i will
it was nice to talk to you too
have a good sleep

you
thank you and you too sagi

you are now offline

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a/n | january 7th

hey 💀

im on school holidays rn, getting ready to head into year 11. i thought i would've posted more but i've been feeling like shit to be completely honest

i want to rant ab it but i get upset whenever i think ab it, it's been a little tough to deal with it and honestly i cant tell if its self-sabotage or if it's genuinely happening. *

but other than that, i've been spending time playing botw and enstars, i've picked up a few books as well and am genuinely hoping for a good school year. also i applied for maccas 💀💀

*idk if it sounds juvenile to even be worried ab, but i've really started to take notice how my best friend, A is like. i noticed a few things earlier in the school year but brushed it off, worried i'm just overthinking it (honestly it might be)

to start off, it may just sound really silly but whenever i try to make plans with my three friends, A always says that she's not sure or is busy that day or that she'll think ab it ; it could be going to the beach, the movies, going into town or wtv.
but when someone else suggest something or if she's the one to suggest something, the plans will always go forward.
i remember whenever i asked her is she wanted to do something that day, she'd say she was busy (probably true tbh - but it has happened consistently so idk)

i often find that i'm invited last to things if i didn't help her plan them. so if we were all going into town as a group (my friends plus other friends if that makes sense??) im typically always notified last.
this has also happened when planning people's birthdays or just group activities. i feel like an afterthought a lot of the time idk
to add to that, sometimes it's her mum that asks her to invite me to things (i love her mum though, she's honestly the sweetest lmao)

another thing is that she always comes to me to talk about her boy problems, her friend problems and talk about her problems. that in itself is not a bad thing, im give her advice and try to find ways to cheer her up.
when i bring up a small problem im facing/have faced, she just goes oh and or doesn't really acknowledge it. sometimes i feel like she just likes what i offer her or smth idk??? but she always gets fired up about our other friends?? it could just be because i don't get upset ab things often i'm not sure

^^ a big thing i feel like that is genuinely something real and i'm not overthinking is about her and boys. a lot of our conversations end up being about boys?? its normal to talk ab boys obviously 💀 but she acts differently around them - often times i'm excluded. another thing is that she is really wants a boyfriend - again not that weird - but it's more like she likes the idea of having a boyfriend (if you understand??? im not great at putting what i'm feeling into words 😭😭)

i think i may be over thinking it but it's genuinely been eating away at me from around mid last year. im scared to mention any of this to her because i'm not sure how she would take it.
she was the first person that has ever felt like a best friend to me, and she means a lot to me, but i can't help but feel like she doesn't like me as much as i like her anymore.

i've had told previous friends about my feelings towards how i'm treated by them and that made them previous friends.

im scared if i tell her how i've been feeling for so long, our friendship won't be the same and then school will be awkward because i truly don't have many friends