e.x.e.s. | chaewon x fem reader

✧. ┊ ❝ don't let me go ❞

❝ right now i need you to hold me

tell me that i'm the only

one that you want when you're lonely ❞

CHAEWON POV

"What do you mean I hurt her more than the accident ever could? Kazuha, why was she so angry at me after the breakup?"

"You really want to know?" The other girl's dark coffee eyes were furiously glinting. "For one, you cheated on her, basically. For two, you were apathetic as hell about it. For three- well. That's not my place."

"Kazuha!" I practically screamed. "My ex-girlfriend is in there, unconscious, and this piece of information is probably the last chance I ever have of making it right with her, okay?!"

She stared at me in surprise, and then took a deep breath.

"I'm only telling you this because Y/N... well." She rolled her eyes. "I have no idea why, but... throughout those three months, she missed you so badly. She's so confused right now, or was last time I saw her, and her life has been all messed up since then. You only made it worse."

I stayed quiet, standing there in the hall dripping wet, and then finally murmur, "Kazuha... just what is Y/N going through exactly?"

Kazuha bit her lip and told me.

"Y/N is so messed up because her mother is never home. Her dad left her family, her mother was never there, and when she was she always had boyfriends there. Y/N learned not to hang on to anything for too long, but when you came along, you seemed like a constant. Another thing to hang on to, to spend special time with. Friends are good to her, yeah, but... love has always been something she doesn't really know well. So when you trashed the relationship like that, it messed her around, and badly."

I stood there, not speaking, my mouth wide open.

One thing was completely clear: I had really, clearly messed up. Clearly and so evidently. But right now I needed to tell her that.

"Kazuha..."

She stepped aside.

"Right now," she mumbled, "I want to be a good friend. She wants you, and you clearly have something to say to her. So you two need to talk it out. But go easy on her, alright?"

I nodded and stepped in the room, unprepared.

Y/N was lying on the hospital bed, pale, her eyes closed and dark hair fanned out all around her like a cloud. Her bedside was empty- her other guests had likely left earlier. Machines were hooked up to her arm and her leg was wrapped in a cast. Scratches bandaged in white tape decorated her face and neck.

"Hey," I whispered into thin air.

One of her eyes blinked open and the machine measuring her heart rate started to beep frantically.

"Whoa, whoa, whoa," I said quickly, raising my hands placatingly. "I'm just here to talk."

"About what?" Her voice was raspy, and I felt my heart speeding up. Her eyes flickered open, and I realized just how much I missed staring into them.

"About us. And you. Can I start by saying that I'm really, really, really sorry?"

"Is this a joke?" She looks confused again, and it's a little cute, actually. I crack a small smile.

"No. I know sorrys won't make up for how much I hurt you, but... I really am sorry, and I want to fix it all."

"I'm half conscious, you know. I might forget this all next morning." She groaned and sat up, and I rushed forward to help her. The second we touched sparks exploded all along my arm. So these were the feelings I'd been hiding for so long.

"I know, but then I'd just tell you again," I murmured softly, close to her now.

"Would you?" She looked up at me, and there was something in her eyes I couldn't quite pinpoint.

"I would."

"Where did confident, angry Ssamu go?" she wondered, looking at me, confused. "Are you sure you're not joking?"

I laughed a little. "This is me when you drove me crazy with worry."

"I drove you... crazy?"

"You still do." The sentence was out before I could filter it back in. I blushed, feeling all of my confused emotions come tumbling right back at me.

"I know," she grumbled. "You hate me, right?"

"Hate you? What? No." I moved closer to her, taking her hand in mine and leaning over her. "I could never hate you."

YOUR POV

"Hate you? What? No." Chaewon looked down at you, looking a little surprised but also emotional, and took your hand, leaning over you. Your heart rate started to speed up again at the sight of seeing her so close.

"I could never hate you."

"R- really? What about Minju?"

"She dumped me." Chaewon let out a short, exhausted laugh. "She found out about the sweater thing."

"Oh, that. Why's that big though?"

"Because... well." She sighed. "I wanted you to be jealous of me."

"What?" You looked up at her, sitting up, confused. "Why?"

She didn't answer for a moment and that was when you realized how close you two now were. Inches away.

"I still love you," she said, her voice coming out as a whisper, her eyes fixed on mine. "I still do. And I wanted you to love me back. To realize how much you still loved me."

My mouth opened in surprise.

"And I'm so sorry for all of that about your family. I was such an idiot. I should have asked you instead of being rude to you and ghosting you. I'm so, so sorry. Will you forgive me?"

She leaned closer, her dark eyes staring into yours, her lips inches away.

"Yes," you whispered, your breath dancing across her lips, before she closed the distance and kissed you.

Your lips collided with her rain-soaked ones, but you didn't care. Butterflies exploded inside your stomach, and all the pain seemed to vanish. She was finally here. She tasted of rain and chocolate, and you found yourself pulling her closer instinctively, wrapping your uninjured arm around her neck. She whimpered slightly and placed her hands on either side of you, bracing herself and then kissing you a final time before pulling back.

"I'm so sorry," she murmured against your lips. "I love you."

"I love you too," and then Kazuha was in the room, smiling at you, and you pulled her into the hug also. And then Eunchae and Nako are there, because Kazuha met them outside. And then minutes later there's Yunjin and Kkura piling on next to Chaewon, and it's a big, laughing, happy mess with all of you together.

Together.

a/n: OK THERES GOING TO BE 1 MORE CHAPTER. IM SO SORRY FOR THE MESSY PLOT AND EVERYTHING, I REALLY APOLOGIZE, ITS MY FIRST FANFIC SORRYY but also im happy everything turned out ok.

Song: Don't Let Me Go by JEON SOMI and GIRIBOY