Today was not an easy day. It started off with a really bad morning and ended with a really bad night. I dont really want to leak too much information because well, I dont know who reads these... Ever since Fathers day, ive been really distant to everyone. As some of you may know from my instagram, my dad sadly passed away 3 years ago when I was 10. I guess I never really had a stage where I wanted to be isolated and quiet since he went, so now its caught up to me because thats what I feel like right now.
I thought that I was doing well in my life, all good things were happening but it now seems ive hit rock bottom, and everythings came tumbling down. At school today, like I said , I was being distant. Some of my friends acctualy made me smile or laugh but now I just feel guilty.
Every lesson in school, I normaly like to be quiet and never join in with anything, I like to be independent.
Everyafternoon when I come back from school, I eat and then turn my wi-fi on and go upstairs. I never really join in with any family events now. I like to be alone. Maybe I will oovoo for a couple of hours but id soon turn it off and cry to myself about how much my life os falling apart. Many other things have happened to me but like I said, I dont know who reads this.
Its like Im alone but im around lots of people. Its like I want to scream and shout out but nothings coming out my mouth. Its like I want to just get up and leave but my legs arnt taking me anywhere. Its like I meed to do something, but whats there to do when all has been done.
