I can't with life I give up everyone sees me as the bright friend but I am not I want to kms.
The boys in my class aren't making it better they agreed that I am ugly and worthless which is true but they didn't need to be honest.
I am not going to make it to 15
I haven't slept in 5 days
I stay in my room for a reason I hate the outside so much I want to crush my feelings so bad and my " best friend " I don't think we were even friends in the first place.
Emily (name drop) isn't making feel better we are mean to each other cause we don't take it to heart but I do Emily doesn't BUT I DO TAKE IT TO HEART
The teacher yelling at you is the worst feeling I am ready for death I love my family but I am ready for death
My mom sees me as a AMAZING drawer and thinks I am really good with math but I am not. my dad loves me but doesn't support me at all
I hate when the teacher yells at you cause the whole class hears the conversation we are having but when you start to cry you have to keep it hidden so people don't worry about you...
I HATE SCHOOL they say "We care about your mental health" but they don't the school only care if you did the homework and get good grades when I fall asleep one day I got to stay over night at the school and GET ALL OF my work done in that one night or I have to stay over for another day.
Great someone made fun of my looks now
GUESS WHAT MORE PEOPLE ARE MAKING FUN OF ME I LOVE SCHOOL SO FUCKING MUCH THAT I MIGHT LEAVE MY SOUL WITH IT WHEN I JUMP OF THE BUILDING THEN EVER WILL FELL SORRY FOR ME
they won't even care that I am gone they will actually happy for once
Someone said "you have to be by (my name) if you are there" and they ended up moving somewhere else...
nobody likes me I really just don't want to wake up if god is real he won't wake me up so I can finally die I MADE PIECE THAT I AM A ANNOYING PERSON THAT ONLY DESERVES IS TO DIE
Why can't people just love me I been trying so hard to make people happy but I can't be happy cause I will just be selfish.
Suicide date:
4/1/24 at 10pm
5/3/24 at 11pm
Just found out that my sister SH great...
could never be me...totally...
Yup.......
Everyone is making my health even worse I know that everyone hates me nobody will ever like me so why live might...
Hang myself. ]
Jump off a building ]
Drown
Slit a knife at my throat
Overdose
Get ran over
Not eat/drink water
Bleed out to much (SH)
Cut off my limbs
Eat poison
Drink water with purfume in it
Drink so much monster that I get a heart attack<3
Eat 3 spoons of salt
Who knowsss.... Nobodyyy caresssssss!
I give up.
