Yeah it's just gonna be me just talking when i need too.
Nobody fucking believe in me, it's the same fucking day, i do the same thing AGAIN AND AGAIN AGAIN, i have so much anger that i can't externalize, it's fucking eating me, like, i can't .
I'm seeing like " that girl who's fan of maneskin " i have a fucking name, my existance is not only about them. Yeah, music is my dream, i want to see my group, and just play in front of people, see them love this, and hate this, idgaf what they think, it will be fun BUT, my fucking social anxiety, << they laught at me>> <<they looking at me >> i can't to, i didnt see a psy, and my educator is never here, like, bro ? My mother ask me to do something that she can do herself, can you give me my ec ? just go take it ? she drinking to much, my brother too, and, sometings, i think to restart to hurt myself, but, i don't want restart this, like, the shower w fresh scars, the clothes on it, i just don't want, but i fucking need to let off steam, i wan't broke some silly object in my room, i just don't fucking know, i so, so fucking lost, and, i think i need help, but, i'm not ready restart to see someone, for all of them, i'm okay, i want to see people, friends, new prson, need to love someone and be loved, i just don't know. that's it for 04:20AM.
