Not alone

Chapter 1

(Mention of ⚠️ abuse, sh, slight eating disorder⚠️)

I walked through the crowded halls of the school, no one really noticed me. That's how I liked it I didn't talk to anyone and no one talked to me, I head to my first period class which was math I walked to my seat and sat down neatly putting my bag up against the side of the desk, I looked out the window down at the younger kids playing tag while others played catch or jump rope. I smiled softly. It was nice seeing them play around. It was something I never had as a kid so to see other kids have that made me happy. I snapped out of my thoughts when my teacher Ms, hide walked in and took a seat at her desk, she opened her computer and projected it to the screen there in bold letters read TEST.

"Fuck" I grumble putting my head down, I forgot to study last night so I know I'm gonna fail.

"So as you all can see on the screen we will be having a test, I hope you all studied"

She began handing out the test, once she was done she headed back to her desk and sat down, she shut her laptop and the words on the screen disappeared.

"You all will have the whole class period to finish, you may start"
I stared at my test blankly, all of a sudden I didn't really understand a thing on my paper. I tried my best to answer the questions to my best ability. I bounced my leg anxiously and The bell rings causing me to jump. I quickly finished the last problem and grabbed my backpack.

"Please everyone before you leave hand in your test"

I grabbed my backpack and walked to Ms. Hides desk, setting my test down in the green bin on her desk. Thankfully that was the last class of the day. I headed outside and got on my bus, I slowly sat down and rested my head on the window. It was cold but it felt good, my stomach grumbled and I bit the inside of my cheek. The thought of eating caused my head to spin.

"Your not perfect yet"

"Too fat"

"Weak"

"Disgusting pig"

My head filled with thoughts. I pinched my thigh hoping to stop the racing inner turmoil going on in my head. The bus stopped and I quickly exited at my stop, I walk home and once I got there I see my father he had beer bottles everywhere on the floor as he watched tv he looked at me and scowled

"What the fuck are you looking at?" He boomed, he was obviously drunk so I wasn't gonna say anything.

I quietly headed up to my room and sat my backpack down. Soon a knock on the door took my attention away from what I was doing.

"Come in" I say.
My mother slowly entered my room with a disappointed look on her face, I sigh preparing myself for what's to come. I look down to see an envelope in her hand. Shit.

"Your grades came" she snarked, her eyes were red and her voice was in a slur. She tossed the envelope at me and put her hands on her hips.

"Read it out loud for me"

I sighed and slowly opened it, of course she's too stoned to read it herself. I looked over the paper slowly most my grades looked good but I clenched my jaw when I saw a C- in math,

"Out loud you brat!" I looked up at her and her nostrils flared.

"There ok, but I have a C- in math" I said softly as I picked at my nails i could feel the anger radiating off of her.

"Eden You god damn useless fuck, can you do anything good in your life? How did me and your father end up with a child like you!? You might as well end your life here and now for goodness sake!"
She snatched the paper from my hand and slammed the door as she left my room. Tears stung my eyes as I looked down at the floor. I rummage through my bedside drawer and grab a small razor blade. I stare down at it trying to calm myself down before I make any mistakes I wouldn't be able to reverse, I let out a sob as I looked at the razor I touched the edge of it and slid my finger down it, I watched at the blood dripped down my finger watching it brought me some form of comfort it's like my head went completely numb. I smiled softly, footsteps were heard coming towards my bedroom and I quickly put the razor blade back. My father enters and he does not look happy

"Go downstairs now!" I scrunch my eyebrows confused but I do as he tells me, once I got downstairs I see my mother take a sip of her beer and my dad pushes me into the living room

"Eden you're not moving fast enough!" He points down to the ground where his beer bottles sat

"I want you to clean these up along with this entire house, you will not get a wink of sleep until it's done" I wince at the smell of beer on his breath, it didn't matter that I'm the only one always cleaning up around here they keep wanting me to do more and more I never have any control over what I do ever.
I began picking up the beer bottles and got to cleaning.

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It was currently 5:09am and I was finally able to lay in bed, my whole body hurt but at the same time I was glad I didn't have to eat, they didn't care if I ate or not anyways so I didn't mind too much. But it didn't matter how much I cleaned, I couldn't get a break even after I had cleaned up. My mother made me do it again five more times non stop.
Soon I felt my eyes get heavy and I turned so that I'm facing the window as I laid in bed the sound of the wind blowing and the crickets chirping eased my mind. I slowly closed my eyes and let sleep slowly take over.

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That's the end of this chapter, hope you guys liked it! I realized that a lot of stuff in this chapter went by really fast lol but again I'm not a professional so bare with me If you have any suggestions please let me know see you all in the next chapter 👋