heather. poetry

★,, 𝗶 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝗻𝗮 𝗱𝗶𝗲

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as the sun goes down and
the sky turns dark,
the moon starts showing up and
the stars start to spark

the moonlight covering the whole town
and the city light turning on
the beauty it holds, at any cost
cannot be put down

the way the cold breeze hits my face
a smile made it's way up to my lips
the beauty this view holds has it's own craze,
man, how i love keeping these clips!

as I see people walking in hands to hands, the birds returning to their nests
this made me think hard, do I have anywhere to be, next?

people walking to their home,
kids holding candies in their hands
I realized that I'm all alone
and I do nothing other than listen to these bands.

the only source of comfort I have is this
does this mean I'll forever be in distress?
looking up at the sky, I wish for a kiss
oh lord, I don't wanna be a mess

i looked around, no one was there
i was once again all alone
i wish I could be somewhere,
somewhere I wouldn't be a 'whore'

as the weather starts getting colder and colder, my hands rub against eachother
searching for warmth
i wish I was a little bolder,
so that I wouldn't be here, with my thoughts that are like a broken raft.

walking on the street,
people being here and there
and I feel like even if I de
nobody would care

man, I wish I was was dead
oh how I wanna end my life
with a long, sharp, beautiful
black knife

atleast I wouldn't be stuck here with
these stupid people who are shitty
they could have been great actors
the beautiful act when they show me fake pity

i laugh looking at the city lights
while thinking about the past
oh how stupid I was to believe them
but seriously, how did they change so fast?

i guess I was the one in the wrong
i seriously was, how did I even believe them
what was in my mind when I was
with them, wasting all my time

i guess I should try to forget the past
i can't stick to it forever
i want to live a new life
but oh boy, trust me it's way too hard

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