It's currently 5:30 and the sun is just barely setting. We all decide to go down by the lake to take pictures and have sum fun while the parents make BBQ.
We start walking and I could feel walkers gaze every few seconds. Mo nudges me and whispers.
"You should talk to him." She advices.
"Yeah yeah.." i say looking down.
"No im serious you really should."
"Ill try" i sigh. But how would I start though?
As we continue to walk we hear other voices down by the lake. It were some other teens they looked around the same ages as us.
"Pass it here!" One kid says as they play volley ball.
They notice us and pause the game for a moment.
" Oh hey!" The kid greets us.
" You guys are the cabin across from us im pretty sure (:" he says pointing to their cabin.
"Yea are you guys new here?" Aryan asks.
" Not really we live up north, we just like to come here around these times, im ivan by the way " he says.
"Nice to meet you ivan" we each greet each other.
"Me and my friends were just having a little get together at the bon fire tomorrow night and we thought why not to invite you guys?" He suggests.
" oh we're fin- " I say before getting cut off by aryan.
"Yea we'll be there." He says. I glare at him.
15 mins go by while everyones playing volley aryan gets a call from his mom telling us to get back.
The sun was already set and it was completely dark. Which we were visited by the sounds of the woods and the swish of the air running through the trees.
The walk back had felt like an eternity being between mo and walker. Exchanging intense glances i could feel the spark we used to have.
We reach the cabin and im just ready to eat and rest from all the laughing and playing.
20 mins after dinner
By this time im dressed for bed and ready to crash. I think walking back to my room from the bathroom.
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I open the door. "Y/n" I hear getting startled. "Holy shit walker you scared me" I say closing the door behind me. "Wheres mo?" I ask setting my phone down on the desk.
"She and aryan decided to go with the parents to get a few more things from the CVS" he says.
" Why didnt you go with them?" I ask pretending to be oblivious.
"Come on. You know why... we need to talk" he says standing up.
" Well dont you think we should talk somewhere else?" I ask opening the door.
"Right" he says following me.
We go out to the balcony near the living room just so we have a little privacy but not too much yk
We sit down.
After a few glances i finally decide to break the silence.
"Where were you the day I left the note?" I finally ask.
"I was with aryan." He says
"And?" I ask obviously knowing the answer.
" Y/n why are you bringing up something so insignificant to this right now?" He asks me getting defensive.
" Walker im asking you this because im still hurt by the fact you didnt even acknowledge my note!" I say to him.
"Y/n thats the thing! I had no prior acknowledgement about the note i swear by that mo told me when i got back and i swear i went to check but you werent there!" He says finally unpacking everything he had on his mind.
See now if he said this earlier we wouldnt be this tense
"Why didn't you just say that?! Walker I would've understood you and forgave you." I assure him
" ...you arent the most easiest person to get attention from" he says looking down.
" well im here now..what do you want to hear now" i say looking at him.
" since we're talking about that day.. what were you going to say?" He asks.
I feel a big rock in my throat and my head starts throbbing. I never felt this nervous to talk about my feelings.
" I-"....."I was gonna-" I scramble my words.
"WALKER....Y/N" we hear Shit their here.
"What are you two doing out here?" Mo asks with a smirk.
"Nothing just talking " i say quickly changing the subject as i feel walkers eyes on me.
"Rightttt" she says coming out and sitting with us followed by aryan.
"Well anyways i got us face masks to put on which i think-" her words slowly die down in my brain while me and walker make eye contact. Why is expressing feelings so hard?
His blue eyes made me want to punch myself for the amount of times I've told him off and said rude things to him out of no where.
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