I've been sitting in bed bored all day. I wanted to get up to create some content since it's my week off from college, but I've barely been posting.
Being a content creator really is just a side hustle for me, I'm just making easy money due to the fact that people actually enjoy watching me. It also teaches me how to slowly crawl out of my shell.
I want to be more consistent, but life is no joke. And for the fact that I barely get help from my parents, I have to do it on my own like I've been doing for years.
Sighing to myself, I get up and decide to do something productive.
Walking down the steps in my apartment, I look around and give myself a mental pat on the back for how much I've accomplished.
After moving from Philly to Atlanta at only the ripe age of 17, I've been living well and on track for someone who had to teach themself to survive on their own.
When I left my city and came to Atlanta I decided to settle for a community college, which had a cheaper tuition than all the colleges I toured.
I was offered a scholarship for University of Penn, but it wasn't full ride and money was tight. I also couldn't see myself living in Philadelphia any longer, especially for my college years.
Community college also isn't as time consuming as a regular college, but it is still a little stressful at times when you're trying to juggle everything at once.
Life gets lonely sometimes. Having my friends there has helped with that deeply, but I still have this black hole inside of me that never seems to be fulfilled.
I've been thinking about dating lately but I don't know if I'm up for it considering I actually never been in a real relationship before.
Another thought that randomly pops up in my mind is that boy I ran into at the club.
It's been a whole week and he still pops up in my mind due to the fact that I can't let anything go like ever.
why'd he grab my waist like that?
why was he looking at me for so long?
who is he? and why do i want to bump into him again?
Batting those thoughts away for now, I make my way into the kitchen and starts taking out the food I'm preparing for tonight.
"Hey alexa, play Thinkin' Bout You by Frank Ocean."
As the song plays in the background, I wash the rice and sing along.
I've been thinking 'bout you Do you think about me still? Do ya, do ya? Or do you not think so far ahead Cause I been thinking bout forever, ooh Or do you not think so far ahead Cause I been thinking 'bout forever, ooh —
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