Nirupama

Nirupama-15

NIRUPAMA

(Some Secrets May Better Remain Secrets Forever)

'I cannot bear this', 'I want to pluck my eyes out' only these two sentences were the clues which the late girl Nirupama left in writing one on a wall and one in a book quite unintentionally and involuntarily to know about the reason for her committing suicide. Her father Ranganath, detective Smaran and his niece Menaka along with Nirupama's friend Sukanya pretty well understood that Nirupama did not want the said secret to be known to anyone else. But since her father Ranganath hell bent upon knowing about the said secret, detective Smaran and his niece Menaka ruthlessly investigated the matter only to unearth the said ghastly, shocking and astounding secret which the dead girl terribly wished to keep only with her in her grave forever.

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"I see." Niranjan nodded his head. "You heard Nirupama saying so. Why you are thinking it was not a dream?"

"It was so real, that is why I am not thinking that it was a dream."

"You were not sleeping then? Was it all happened while you were awaken?

"No. I was sleeping at that time." Sukanya said irritatingly.

"You were sleeping? That means it all happened in your dream. How do you say it all real?"

"I was sleeping alright but as soon as Nirupama started saying something I woke up. I did not sleep for a long time afterwards."

"Can you tell me what Nirupama said to you at that time?"

Sukanya told him what Nirupama said to her.

"You still remember exactly what she has said to you at that time?" Niranjan said.

"Yes." Sukanya said.

Niranjan smiled again. "It was not your dream then. At the same time it was not really happened either."

"I cannot understand what you are saying." Sukanya confused.

"You have imagined all that while you were awaken in the middle of night."

"No. It is even more preposterous! How do I imagine something like that without knowing I am imagining."

"It may be surprising but it is possible. You are so much obsessed with thoughts about Nirupama. So you have started imagining like this about her. Don't feel surprise! Sometimes we do imagine like that and think it is really happening."

"You are right. I can say I am obsessed with thinking about Nirupama. I just cannot get rid of that thinking. Mostly it is all useless thinking. Once there is no chance that Nirupama comes again, there is no use of thinking her so all the time."

"I agree with you on that." Niranjan nodded his head.

"But still I cannot agree I have just imagined all that. It is preposterous!"

"I already said. Sometimes it happens like that." Niranjan said.

"Alright. I agree with what you have said." Menaka nodded her head. "But even more big problem to me is I just cannot stop thinking about her. What should I do with these obsessive thoughts? Can I stop them by force?"

"If you try to do it like that with them they do become even more strong. We should never try to stop our thoughts by force?"

"What should I have to do then?" she once again irritated.

"Before you know about how to deal with thoughts, it is important that you should know the type of thoughts. Thoughts are two types. Intentional thoughts and unintentional thoughts. Intentional thoughts are those which you do intentionally. You shall have control over the intentional thoughts. There is no necessity to worry much about them. The next are unintentional thoughts. These unintentional thoughts do come all the time. You need not do them at all. Whatever you may be doing, they just pop into your mind all the time. These unintentional thoughts consist pleasant and unpleasant thoughts also.