RaheemSaira

Saira

Is Blue Dress too loud? Yes, I think it looks like I want attention, like I am trying to make an impression .I need to wear something casual like it's a regular day and I dont expect much, which I actually really don't.
Yes, I mean, I did agree with the blind date, but now I feel I was trapped, not to be reasonable enough.
That old lady looked so sweet and genuine. For the first time, I could not say no immediately to a stranger.It felt like I'd break her heart.
But I should have broken it she was not dying. Why didn't I think this earlier.

And what was the deal with my mom? Aren't moms supposed to be protective and on alert. She should have said something ...why something... she should have said solid NO. Rather, she said yes quicker than the lady asked questions.

I mean, yes, I am looking for love, waiting for my man, but how can this be destiny. Why did she feel good about it.

As for me,yes, the situation was probably very weird for me to respond reasonably on time.
Who imagines they will get asked for a blind date from a mom for their son while shopping in a mall.

And she looked pretty decent as if from a good family rather wealthy family why would she do that.
And why did my mom share our number. Yes, I am free to choose, and yes, there is no harm in meeting someone if you are single, but what is this situation, I now feel stupid.

I have 0 idea about this person, how he looks, what he does and I am not sure even if he will come and I hope he is not some goon.

Ahhh and what if god forbid his mom has some mental illness and just says this to every second girl and he goes and asks for their forgiveness at every blind date because he is already married, oh god no, no way I am wearing this blue dress. I'd look fool and attention seeker.

Where is my white shirt, the most formal, the most buttoned and most boring shirt.The one which, whenever I wear, hardly, any boy throws a second glance. My period shirt. Yup,for those days of the month when you dont bother to impress. 
But I can wear my pretty pink shirt too, but no, why take a chance? What if he likes me in it, and then his heart will break when I say no.

I will wear white, yes, white, white is safe, collared, buttoned, full sleeves, yes perfect, and where are my baggy mom jeans, yup right here, you two are perfect for "Mr. Mamas Boy wants blind date. "

Sorry, Aunty, but I dont trust you or my mom or the universe that much.

I am washing my hair, tyding it up, and wearing a smile with nude lip gloss just for little charm that should be enough , not too elegant, not too cheap.
Yup, perfect. Perfect for an independent girl who is ready to say no.
I am ready "Mr.Blind date."