RULING YOU

ch-4 Boyfriend.

"Don't you cry for the lost,
smile for the living."
              
-life's for the living_ Passenger
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Walking towards the restaurant I looked last time at myself in the reflection of myself on the resturant glass walls straighting my hair ends with my fingers I took a deep breath and smiled.

Walking inside I walked towards the receptionist asking for the reserved seat by my name.

Puting my purse on the chair next to me I sat at one smoothing my floral above knee size dress. It's was very simple pastel pink colour dress with straps on shoulder and circle neck with that I wore pink colour heels leaving my hair in its natural curls a few simple rings and earings with a pendent was all that I wore for today's date.

Feeling exited I texted Alex asking that where was he.

It's been two hours and he's still not here feeling embarrassed I ordered steaks and coke for myself and ate all alone finishing for the last time I called him but before I could stick the phone to my ears I saw him coming inside in his working attire black tuxedo his curly brown hairs in a mess falling on his forehead. Sighing I kept the phone back on the table feeling relaxed that he's alright.

He looked frustrated, shouldn't it be me who should be frustrated.

It's not his first time he's always late for the date he himself asks for. A year ago we were happy smiling and having fun but now it's over the excitement between us is over and now we can't see our future together.

He's handling his father's company, work burden has definitely changed him. The Alex I knew from almost four years ago was gone the Alex I wanted was gone. His smile which I used to adore was now hardly real, his hair was always a mess and those beautiful eyes were the victim of those heavy shadows down there.

"Sorry, I was late again."
"It's okay. I already ate." I replied softly not wanting to sound rude while knowing that he is already suffering from workloads.
"Order something you must be hungry" I said giving a reassuring smile.

He kept his cold hands around my warm ones on the table.

"I have something to say, hannah."
He never called me Hannah it was always Hannie. Nervousness took over me and that bad feeling arised inside me.

His eyes showed nothing but guilt and sadness.

Sighing, I gave a node signalling him to start whatever he has to say.

"Hannah,"
"Yes?"
"Let's break up."

And that was unexpectedly expected. I knewed someday it will happen but I didn't knew that it will happen this soon and sudden. I wanted to throw up. I wanted to go home and curl up in a ball sleeping for hours.

"What-" my voice came out weak and low.
"Look Hannah, I'm sorry but I love someone else. You deserve better Hannah, you deserve someone better than me. I'm taken Hannah, I'm taken and I don't think so that I can come back. You are no more stucked inside my head I don't feel happy to see you I'm out of love with you, I'm sorry." He blurt out everything which was inside him and I just sat there silently watching him falling out of love with me.

"Who is she?" I asked the first thing in my mind. "One of my friends sister, you don't know her" he replied looking straight in my eyes.

"Are you kidding me?" I asked chuckling afraid that he might say no.
"I wish I was." And that was it for breaking me completely. Tears threatened me to come out but I bited them back not wanting to break down infront of him.

"Are you happy with her?"
"Yes" he replied hesitating.
"So it's over in between us?"
"Yes."
Hearing that I got up struggling to keep up with my legs which were numb. I walked out of the resturant hearing him shouting my name twice but he didn't followed me. Chuckling at how silly of me to expect him running for me I walked blindly wherever the road was taking me to.
Walking for quite ten minutes I stopped leaning on the railing of the bridge. It was dark and the stars where out cold breez was blowing making me shiver slightly. I smiled at the thought of me and Alex having fun when we first met. How he used to make me blush every then and now how he used to stare at me for minutes without blinking how he introduced me to his parents how he was always teasing and flirting with me how he used to give me an angry stare whenever I talked with guys how he was so protective for me, everything was gone now nothing was left only ashes of memories where left which instead of making me happy made me sad those happy moments were turned into bitter ones and I'm hating it.

Feeling a cyclone of sadness inside of me I broke down so suddenly that I didn't saw it coming. I holded the railing tightly crying the shit out of me shouting at Alex that how easily he gave up and the romantic weather was doing no good. I cried and cried God knows how much and I lost the track of time. It was almost midnight and my phone was constantly vibrating knowing that it's my parents getting worried I messaged then that, I was okay and out with friends, not wanting to talk in my current state.

I booked a cab which arrived in hardly five minutes.

Arriving home I walked up the stairs after knocking on my parents door and informing them that I'm home. Landing on my bed I throwed my heels aside removing my dress turing on the AC and shifting under the sheets in my undies only.

"Fuck everyone."
And with that I dosed off.
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