American Idiot(Green Day)

Ghost Of You

Mike's pov
"Alana White is Michael Pritchard daughter."the sentence I did not want to heard. But i heard . I looked down. I've know Erin since we were kids. Like I've known her since I've known Billie. No longer she made me talk to Billie. Why did this happen. God fucking damn it. WHY? I regret this. I don't want Alana As a daughter. She's a good kid and all just I don't want to tell Britt and my other kids. this fucking sucks. I ran my hands through my hair. I looked up and saw Alana. She was staring at me. then she spoke"Well.." she paused then spoke again"Wait no..Heck no..I can't be his daughter he was married when he 'made' me! mike doesn't do that crap. He doesn't cheat!" hr voice trembled. I don't know why but it broke my heart when she said Mike. It never hurt so bad when some one has ever said my name. Other than that time Billie and I got in a huge fight and he said"fuck you Mike!Or is that really your name?" i lied to him and he thought everything after that up until we were 12 i said was a lie. i heard her wimper. "A-alana?" i said her quietly. she looked up and her eyes were red and puffy"yeah?" she said back "Does this mean you don't like me?" she shook he head. "I will always like you! DUH!" she said trying to make me smile. "Erin?" she looked at me in response"huh?" "uh..does this mean..since your alive and all..does this mean she has to move back to Rodeo? and if she has to doesn't get visitations?" she nodded" yeah but we won't be moving back to the old shitty house" she said smiling. I nodded. I stood up and grabbed my coffee and left. I got in my car and hit my head on the steering wheel. I shoved the key in the key hole and twisted it. I backed out and drove to my house. I got there and found a note'Mike I need some time with out the family. The kids are with your sister. I love you, Brittany.; She just left me. What the hell. I called her. She ignored me. i kicked the couch. "FUCK"i yelled. I felt tears go down my cheeks.I started talking to my self"my wife just left me and i just found out i have a 10 year old daughter"I sat down and wiped my cheeks"your a grown ass man. You don't need to cry"i mumbled to my self.I turned on the t.v. and watched it.

Alana's POV

Mike doesn't want me. I was happy that he was my dad. He could teach me  bass.he could be a better father for me than David. I started crying on the way back to Billie's. "sissy are you okay?" Michael asked"no"i mumbled. i looked out the window and started at the pasting trees and such. the car pulled into the drive way. I got out before anybody else and walked straight to my room. I walked up the stairs and into the blue as fuck room  and laid down on the bed. I saw Billie walked passed my door thee times. I shook my head. I started crying again and felt a hand on my back. I turned around and no one was there. I shook it off. then i heard some one say "Lana"no one but my friend that was n 7th grade called me that. he died though. he killed himself because his mom beat him and his dad left and he got bullied so badly. I turned to the direction and saw no thing. I started crying even more. "Dereck. You ass. I hate you"i mumbled. I felt my eyes get heavy. I slowly fell asleep. I looked around and saw the familiar black scene hair and blue eyes. "Dereck?" I said as I saw him. He looked the saw as he did at the last day of school which was the last time I saw him. "Lana?" "YOU ASS!"i screamed at him. he flinched"what?" he asked"you killed yourself!"i yelled back"I NEEDED YOU"i continued. "I-I'm sorry.."he said. "it's okay dick head" I smiled at him."so i heard Mike Dirnt's your dad?" i nodded"you don;t seem so happy" i nodded again"why?"he asked."he don't want me"i said plainly. I felt like crying. no one ever loved me. Not even mom. She left me because she hates me.he made a weird noise and we laughed and then made the scene change. then he said"you and mike" I looked closer. the toddler had Blonde hair and bright blue eyes. "nuh uh" he nodded" "he don't want me" he shook his head. "let me show you something.."he showed me a picture of a toddler watching Mike play bass. "who's that?" he smiled and said"you and mike" I looked closer. the toddler had Blonde hair and bright blue eyes. "nuh uh"he nodded and said"this too" he showed me a picture of a girl that looked about 14 and mike."yeah so?" "that's you" he said as he pointed to the girl. Mike was laying on the floor with his eyes closed."i-is he dead?" i asked. Dereck shook his head yes. the girl was crying. there was a note by his body'Alana I should have been there for you. I'm sorry I love you and never for get that. I'll see you again.'I started crying. "why the hell are you showing me this?" "because. in this you killed yourself because mike didn't act like he wanted you but he did. In a different one he showed it and you didn't want him. so just don't hurt yourself.." I nodded and felt myself shaking. "bye Anal" he said laughing at me I flipped him ff and said bye and woke up. Billie was there"food's ready" i smiled "yay" I ran down stairs and sat down. the rest of the people sat down and we ate. "so..your my little brother?" I looked at mom"yes Alana he is your little brother" "so?what does he like?" " he likes the color orange,his favorite food is pizza, his favorite band is the clash, he likes to watch people play instruments. he LOVES toys and his blanket. he loves car he can name what type of car it is by just looking at it."(A/N now you know what crap my nephew likes. and one time my friend's dad said he had a wagon as a car and my nephew said it's a volts-wagon..)Billie Joe looked weirded out by the fact he could name cars. i smiled that's almost the same as me. "oh and he likes my little pony" yes he's my brother. "how do you know he's tre's?" "I don't really know..I uh just guessed....since he was the only person I had it with after Alana.." "what about dad?"I said meaning Dave hoping she got that"we got divorced.."I nodded. "Soo..um..Billie...how's uh...school?"I asked really weird. He started laughing"sweetie I haunt been to school since I was 17" he smiled. "I knew that I was just trying to start a conversation "I said back. He nodded."soo..um...Alana..how's uh..school?"Billie asked mocking me"eh..I get bad grades..." he nodded. "what do you mean?" e asked"i get mostly F's.." i said. I stood up and put my plate in the sink and went upstairs. I sat on the bed and just sat. I felt a hand on my back again. I turned around and my only friend(that wasn't dead)was standing there"RYAN!"I said happy. He smiled but it slowly faded"why didn't you  tell me? I could've helped you."he said. "um..I'm sorry.." "I can't" "can't what?" "do this" " do what?" i asked scared for his answer "I can't live without you knowing that I'm adopted, I'm 11, and I like you more than a f-friend" i smiled"I'm 11 also..I flunked the 4th grade 3 times..and i like you as a .." I stopped when he disappeared. What the heck. "R-ryan?" I said. Billie came in"who ya talking to?" i shrugged"I dunno" Am I going insane? What the hell is going on. "Billie?" he looked at me"do you know if your insane if you see some one you know but they aren't there? and you see some one that's dead in a dream?" he shook his head"no, your just in shock. You just feel this way because you just got murdered."he said then his face started melting...da fuck..I looked around and i was in a white room with nothing in it. "MOM?" I screamed. I saw a man come in. "Shut the fuck up!" he screamed at a little girl. i stopped crying. she pulled a belt out and started hitting a little kid with it. "DADDY!!STOP!"the little kid yelled. "YOU!!" he looked at a little by maybe 2 and started yelling at him about how he was adopted and how much he man didn't want him. then the man was in a hospital. he looked at a woman and said"I have very bad news" he said softly. she nodded. "i-i" he just put up 6 fingers and she and a girl about 9 started crying. "what's wrong with daddy mommy?" he same little boy that that man was yelling at said. "He's...going to be gone..sweetie" then I shot up and was in my room again. um.."mom?" i said. she came in and sat down next to me. "yes?" "were you adopted?" "yes" "did you have a little brother?" "yes" she said "did..your..um..dad die?" "foster parent.."she said"i hated that man but it hurt more than the beatings when he said he had 6 months.." i looked down i nodded. "um..goodnight" she looked suprised about this"its only 6 you sure" i nodded.i went to sleep and woke up at like 4. I smiled and went into Billieand adie's room and stole one of billie's many lighters and a fag. I know I'm like 11 BUT HEAR ME OUT I wanna try this shit. I ot on the roof and just sat there with the lighter and fag. how do you do this. I put the fag in my mouth and lit it. I took a puff. I started coughing.I head some thing move. shit. I rubed the end of the fag on the roof and got in my bed really fast.Billie walked in and smelled me. ten looked out my window."don't steal my shit"he said kind of angery. he took the crap and left. shit i need to be more quiet. 

A/N I MAY NOT BE UPDATING ANYTHING..for like a few day cuz i just got some really bad news and its kinda about this chapter...like i feel like shit and i think i may need help for this but i fucking life right now yeah..soo...i may not update anything for like 7 or 8 months or until i feel better wich could take forever..buut hope you guys..to ho evr reads this has a good day  :) and i drew that..