It's been a little over a year since Leilani has been missing, will the family give up hope or will they focus and find her with everything going on in their personal lives?
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Lei August 19th
Just know everything will be alright Promise I will be right by your side Everything will be alright Promise I will be right by your side I got you for life I put that on my life I got you for life I put that on my life
"I got you for life mamas baby" I cooed at Izzy as she sat in between my legs splashing the bath water with her towel.
Over the few months I've became obsessed with her cuteness!! Her little perfect butt, Her little chunky cheeks, glossy eyes, and my baby lil two teeth smile omg it's so cute!!!
I overcame hating my daughter and I can't lie and say that I don't have moments where I just sit with her and think about how I treated her and the abuse I did to her at just days old and I cry because I do it's a process and I'm learning to be patient during the process and allow myself to feel and discover the root.
Not only that but my village specifically my husband! He can just see it sometimes and allow me to be by myself to express it or alone. I'm opening up more about the things I've went through during and after the pregnancy and it honestly feels good to allow him into my world without him guessing. I haven't expressed all the things I've went through but we taking it one episode at a time.
Ive been playing make up when it comes to the kids and trynna spread myself out and make sure every kid get attention is tuff especially with a nine month old, but honestly I love it. I love every stressful part about it.
Even with Ri being back we have the family moments I always dreamed of and to live in this dream is just truly a blessing to me. Yeah imma yell at cuss they asses out but I learned to relove them as they adult selves.
I love when my kids are around, I look forward to the bickering, fighting, accidental cursing slip ups, screaming all of it. Even when Ej brings over my grand kids and they run all up and through here.
"Ba" Izzy screamed flipping her towel over the edge of the tub.
"Okay little girl" I warned her making her laugh in her hands as she plopped down in the water making a big splash causing her to fall under. She popped back up with bubbles running down her face
"Ah ha I betcho ass won't do it again" I laughed as she started to pout rubbing her eyes.
"Bae!...can you come get her?" I yelled to Erza after I washed her up with her bath sponge.
"Here I come baby.....ahhh is that my Izzy!" He gasped as he came into the bathroom with her towel.
"Da! Ddddd" she smiled splashing the water happily
