TW ( EXTREME SH, EATING DISORDER,DEATH,TALKING ABT INSECURITIES, POSSIBLE SUICIDE ATTEMPT,SA) this is not tooo important so if you get triggered by those subjects you can chapter
I'm not a talented writer bear with me anyways here we go.
1st person pov
I look at myself in the mirror with disgust.
My new scars haven't started fading on my wrist.
My skin isn't clear.
My Belly is so big and round.
My teeth aren't white.
My thighs are to big.
Nothing looks how it should.
Why am I not pretty like other girls?
Why can't I be skinny?
I sit down thinking about this for awhile until I get a text from my friend
(Tarayummy) "Hey how have you been? We haven't talked since the incident
Want to hang out some time?"
I cant reply so I leave her on read
(Tarayummy) "i understand."
I instantly feel guilt but I can't bring myself to reply
I sit down and think of how I'm such a bad friend
Started hitting and punching myself crying
I get a notification from instagram
(Anonymous1692) *Sends link to weight loss videos*
I cry
I go downstairs and grab a knife and a surgical marker
I draw where I want to lose weight
I grab a knife and slowly drag it across the lines as blood starts to seep
Out between the cuts, The pain is almost unbearable and I slip in and out of consciousness
I try to cut more but I can't,
I reach for my phone and call Tara
(Tarayummy) " Hey Y/N are you okay?"
Y/N " I need help....."
you try to say the words but mumbles only come out luckily Tara understood
(Tarayummy) "I'm sending my friend to help you, stay on the line till he is there I'm also calling 911"
I check my phone it's 1PM
I check my phone again it's still 1PM
I hear a door open as sombody walks into my room
"Oh my god! Y/N, please stay with me"
He wraps a blanket around me to try to lower the bleeding
"Focus on me okay?, my name is Johnnie Alan Guilbert"
I groan from the pain
(Johnnie) "I will be right back wait here"
Johnnie led the paramedics to you
You fainted
Time 1:AM
you wake up in so much pain with a psychologist next to you
(Y/N) "Why am I not dead..?"
(Psychologist) "The doctors were able to save you. Would you like to tell me what happened?"
(Y/N) "I remember it all" (I miss the rage ref 😕)
(Psychologist) "Remember what?"
(Y/N) "His hands all over me, me resisting.."
(Psychologist) "We are gonna have to send you back until your well, We will let you talk to your boyfriend for a bit?"
(Y/N) "Boyfriend?"
(Psychologist) "Well friend."
Johnnie walks in and hugs you and you blush a bit,
(Johnnie) "What happened?, what did she say?"
You break down in tears, throughout crying your able to get the words out
(Y/N) "She's gonna send me back.."
(Johnnie) "I understand why you are upset, But it's better if you get help"
I grab a cup of water and throw it on him
(Y/N) "YOU DONT UNDERSTAND!"
I scream at him,
(Johnnie) "Help me understand then"
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That's all for this chapter sorry it was short but I will get them slowly closer lol I hope you enjoyed this so far it's my first book I'm making
