Daisies II taekook

Chap 8

                                                                                                   
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It's heavy, his heart is heavy, and that heart belongs to a young lad who nestled in his bed, Tears of regret and misery wetting his cheeks.

The first thing Jungkook did after arriving home was run to his room while hiding his crying face in front of his parents. Both of them waited for his son to open up.

"Iam sorry, iam sorry, iam sorry." His knees gave up as he closed his door. He felt like he was perched over the end of his world. Penitence of hurting taehyung was breaking him apart.
"I love him, i-i do." Choking on his tears, he shouted his lungs out. "why, why me?"
His heart craved Taehyung, he badly wanted to say 'yes', and he was on the verge of agreeing until he was pulled out with a rope called reality. His Thoughts never left him to dream good. Thinking about happiness always made his misery come back, they never left him in peace.

Silence filled with heavy breaths drops hitting the wooden floor and cursings.
Mind fuzzy, trying to think of his vulnerable state. Memories of the elder's tears perforated his already eyelet heart.
He held his love in his hands but this evening he rejected the receiver who deserves it. His preserved love is now bleeding uncontrollably.

Taking his grievously shaking right hand, caressing it, clutching his palm tightly, His feeling burst along with a pool of tears, breathing with difficulty his words tried to escape from his hurt vocals.
"I like to be held by you, I love when you-r hands hold mine in them, but wha-t I did I ditched it at was cause?"
Words finally escaping but nowhere to reach, his destination far to set foot on, he was too near to arrive his heaven only to run back with bloody knees, yes he is a coward, coward to hurt himself so no one would feel his burden on them.

Aren't we all running away from reality like him?
The fear of carrying the heaviness of reality stops us from taking another step towards it, feet going numb when we feel like life is judging our path.
We are stuck in a jigsaw puzzle with no proper pieces.

In Jungkook Case More than half of the pieces are shredded into small pieces leaving no choice for him to complete it.
His life was taken away by colon cancer.
When he got to know about his illness, he didn't cry, he strangely felt acceptance, he cried accepting his fate, never blamed his life, he never felt this culpable.
But now, he wants his life to at least show some mercy and free him from this painful darkness.

"kookie" A soft knock stopped jungkook's action as he stood up knowing his dad going to ask him, he was not gonna hide this one at least.

Being a father he couldn't stand his son's dejected state, "Want to talk about it, baby?"
He felt a not nod against his wet chest.

His mom leans her head against the couch, she stares at the ceiling while her tears slip from her painful orbs, she wants to comfort her son with sweet words, only if she wasn't mute.

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"Can you feel his love? is he being true?"
Questioned his father as he looked at his who laid his head on his chest.
Jungkook said everything about what transpired this evening.

"His every word, His every action screams affection and love, My skin burns with love in his every touch, His eyes gaze at me as you gaze at Eomma, today I felt like he is loving me with his everything, I never felt this way with anyone, I trust him Appa."
Hearing his son's heartful words, and looking at his red face with a constant flow of tears, he is cognizant that his son was in love.

"Then give him a chance", he gently wiped his wet cheeks, staring into his baby's eyes as he pecked his forehead.
"Even after knowing about you he is willing to stay with you, his love is unaffected by reality, his love is strong. let him court you, who knows that you both together can find a solution."

"But you know appa, when I leave forever he will be hurt because of me."

"Baby it is gonna hurt him more now, You may not have forever but you have enough time to show love to each other, it's your time to live kook."
"Until your last breath you should have someone beside you, especially the person you love, so that will remind you how blissfully you lived your ending time, we want you to have a happy life jungkook,"
"Give him a chance I am sure that fate melts over your love."

"I will think about that", Jungkook said as his father broke the hug and asked him to freshen up before having dinner.
"I know my son is not a coward, my baby is strong like mom's punch", he shouted a little louder making jungkook chuckle at his father's youthful side.
he can always rely on his appa and eomma, they never made him feel insecure about his sexuality, instead, they teased him whenever they met a handsome man.

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Closing the door behind, His father turned his head letting his held tears fall as he looked at his wife waiting downstairs with dry tears making room for fresh hot tears.

His father conveyed everything she could hear, and she replied to her husband back with ' I feel happy for our baby, he deserves the world, he suffered a lot, I pray for lords above to make my baby's life better ', in mute sign language, Her husband understood more through her eyes.

They quickly wiped their tears when they heard footsteps.

A night filled with hurt and understanding is now coming to an end, younger is intensely intertwined with sweet and sour thoughts.
Finally gonna do what his heart says, he wants to stop his suffering. 

But he wasn't the only one agonizing, there was someone who was lying on the couch looking at his mother's photo frame while sharing about his love, he cried, being rejected wasn't the only reason, knowing about Jungkook's illness his heart shattered seeing his lover suffering, he is not regretting about loving him, just lamenting and complaining the heavens above.
When he got to know Jungkook's truth, his heart urged him to love jungkook more.

The truth of love can't be burnt by fire or soaked by water, As every sky and land are lit by love.
Even birth and death call us with love, it's everywhere.
Countless miseries can never withstand true love.
Rules of nature and reality can never defeat it, it stays, even when there's nothing else.
There is nothing else superior to love, so we humans should always let our love win.
As our life is not just a story, it's a tale of multiple loves, it's our responsibility to not let our love die.
In the end, it's LOVE all we have.

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