Alone...

Chapter 4

Third person pov

In the morning it was Tuesday and Hinata got up and went to practice after he got ready once we were there he went to the club room and got dressed.

After he entered the gym Suga walked up to him. "Hey are you ok after yesterday" Suga asked worried. "Yeah I'm fine I was just surprised I used to be touched starved so if I feel someone touch me without me knowing I might have a panic attack but I'm getting better don't" Hinata lied well half lied.

"Ok thanks for telling us" Suga said
"Us??" Hinata asked confused
"Yeah the whole team heard so thanks" Suga said
"Oh ok your welcome" Hinata said

~Timeskip to two weeks later their at lunch~

Hinata sat alone at lunch and was perfectly fine with that but then he started to hear whispers around him. He looked up and saw them whispering about him.

He was scared that it was bad. He started to have flashbacks but then he heard his name. And saw that his team was going to join him from their friend groups.

"What are y'all doing??" Hinata asked
"We're coming to eat lunch with you isn't that alright" Noya asked
"Yeah but you guys didn't have to" Hinata said
"Hinata tell me how many friends do you have here"- Daichi
"None other than you guys" -Hinata
"Exactly" -Daichi
"But I'm fine" -Hinata
"How are you fine if you barely talk to anyone all day the only time I hear you talk is at volleyball, and answering questions that the teachers ask you" -Kageyama
"Hinata is this true" -Suga
"Yeah" -Hinata
"Hinata that's not good for you" -Suga
"I-i know b-but I'm not good at talking to new people" -Hinata
(Sorry but he gonna have some social anxiety)
"It's ok but you need to talk more" -Suga
"He's right Hinata not talking isn't good for your mentality" D-Daichi
"I know I know trust me but I never learned how to talk to new people" -Hinata
"Hinata tell me the truth are you ok" -Daichi
"What oh yeah I'm fine" -Hinata
"Hinata come talk to me in private please"-Daichi
"What why *visably scared" -Hinata
"Hinata do you want me to come with" -Suga
"Yeah" -Hinata
"Ok then let's go we'll be back" -Daichi

They left to go talk privately

"Ok so Hinata are you really ok" -Daichi
"Yeah I'm fine" -Hinata
"Hinata do you know how many people have said they were fine but weren't" -Suga
"No-no" -Hinata
"Everyone who's said it" -Suga
"Ok but I really am fine" -Hinata
"Hinata tell the truth" -Daichi
"We won't judge you in any way ok" -Suga
"F-fine ok I'm not fine I'm far from it ok"-Hinata
"That's what we wanted to hear now what's wrong is it something at home or is it something that used to happen and your not healed correctly from it mentally" -Suga
"Um both??" -Hinata
"Can you tell us" -Suga
" *Doesn't say anything and is just scared*"-Hinata
"*Notices* what if I tell you something about my past" -Suga
" *Shocked* Suga are you sure about that"-Daichi
"Yes I'm sure now Hinata will that make you more comfortable" -Suga
"Y-yeah" -Hinata
"Ok so before I started my second year I was abused by my mother and father and it lasted until the last of my first year it stopped because Daichi found out about it so he called the police and their in jail now and I love with my amazing aunt" -Suga
"I'm sorry" -Hinata
"Hey it's not your fault besides it's in the past now I'm perfectly fine but now I need you to tell me your past ok" -Suga
"O-ok so since elementary I've been bullied at first it was light insults but once I reached Middle school it went from insults to beatings and insults" -Hinata
"Omg Hinata are you ok that is so close to my past except I didn't get bullied it was my parents not students but at least you had a safe home right" -Suga
"N-no I don't have an exactly safe home I was neglected and abused by my parents. They would ignore me and also leave the house alot and then would show up randomly and would scream at me for not cooking them dinner when they just showed up and they would say the same thing when they stormed out of the house mad saying that they would never come back and would only pay for food and nesseities and bills but then would come back two-three days later." -Hinata
"Ok I see now can I ask one question" -Suga
"Y-yeah" -Hinata
"Can I see your arms" -Suga

After hearing that Hinata immediately froze he knew he had multiple cuts on his arms, side, and thighs.

"S-sure he put out his arms scared for getting yelled at" -Hinata
" *Takes arm and raises sleve up*" -Suga
"Their worse then yours Suga" -Daichi
" *Shocked* W-wait Suga you used to c-cut"-Hinata
"Yeah I did but I don't anymore" -Suga
"O-ok but are you not going to yell or hit me for these???"
" What no why would I" -Suga
"Because I'm looking for attention or well that's what everyone who's seen them has said" -Hinata
"Oh Hinata *starts to tear up*" -Suga

Suga then goes to hug Hinata in a comforting hug and that hug was all Hinata needed to break down letting all the emotions that were bottled up over spill making him start bursting out crying.

Suga and Daichi just let him sit their and cry but then they noticed him scratching himself which was making him bleed and making him start getting worse. Suga reacted quickly and stopped him from scratching his arms now covered in blood and him fighting back because he was a "failure" who "deserved" it.

After awhile he calmed down he looked empty his eyes were clouded and their was no light in them he could now only feel pain and sadness nothing else no happiness, no anger, no love, no embarrassment, nothing he was could now only feel pain and sadness nothing else he was emotionless.

A/N hey hope you liked it I tried to make this make since if it doesn't then I'm sorry I'm trying but thanks to all my readers that are reading this and staying to it but don't worry it will get better in the end