Road to recovery- Pablo Gavi

Part 10

Date day has come around. This morning I woke up really early because I was nervous about tonight. It's stupid really as I've been to Pablo's place what feels like a million times before and I know he's a lovely guy but I can't help but be a bit anxious about actually going on a date with him. After we confessed our feelings for each other things have been a bit different it's not like we could forget about what happened so now our text conversations or FaceTime calls are a bit more flirty than they used to be. I'm not worried about things being awkward as I don't think things could ever be awkward between us but I am worried about what will happen if the date doesn't go well. Pablo and I get along really well as friends but that doesn't necessarily mean we will work romantically and that's my worry as I've got so used to having him in my life. 

I tried my best not to overthink too much as that definitely won't help but it definitely got harder as the day went on. When it was finally time for me to get ready is when I really started to get nervous it didn't help that Pablo told me to just dress casually which felt so wrong for a first date. I haven't been on many dates but the ones I have been on I've dressed up a bit for all of them and worn a nice dress or cute outfit but I'm not doing that tonight. I kept things simple and comfortable but without looking like I'd just crawled out of bed. As much as I didn't go overboard with my outfit I couldn't help but do my hair and a bit of makeup as I felt better knowing I was a bit more put together. Just to make sure I looked good I texted my best friend who I never get to see as she moved away but all I had to say was that I was going on a casual date and she was replying just after I'd hit send. She really hyped me up and told me I looked amazing which made me feel a lot better. 

Pablo really wanted to be able to pick me up for our first date but of course he couldn't so instead he told me Fermin was coming to pick me up on his way back from training. I was also made aware that Fermin really made fun of Pablo for not being able to pick up his own date and he even said he might not bring me over to Pablo's and take me out himself which was of course a joke but Pablo made me promise not to go anywhere with him. Fermin text me as soon as he arrived so I made my way down as quickly as possible which is as quick as the lift in my building goes. When he saw me coming Fermin got out of his car and handed me a bouquet of my favourite flowers as well as a little card which told me that they were from Pablo. 

"Did he make you pick these up?" I asked Fermin

"Yeah I told him to get them delivered but he didn't want to do that and he blackmailed me into picking them up" Fermin explained 

"He blackmailed you" I laughed 

"He said he'd post an embarrassing picture of us as kids and I know the one he's talking about and I'd rather die than have the public see that picture" he laughed 

"I better be careful what pictures I show him then I don't need him having blackmail material on me too" I joked 

"You'll be fine he loves you far too much to ever do that to you" he said 

"How are you feeling are you nervous?" Fermin asked 

"Yeah I know I don't need to be but I can't help it I'm just worried we won't work out as more than friends" I admitted 

"Trust me you'll be fine I can't tell you everything but Pablo talks about you a lot and I can tell you mean a lot to him so I wouldn't be worried he'll do everything he can to make things work" he said 

"Thanks hearing that makes me feel a lot less anxious" I said 

"It's what I'm here for" he joked 

We chatted as he drove, he asked about my recovery and I asked about the team and training. It was nice to catch up with him but we soon arrived at Pablo's and so I got out as he pulled up outside so I didn't take away any more of his time. While in the car the nerves went away but they all came back once I was actually making my way towards the door. I just didn't feel worthy of being in this position sure me and Pablo may get on really well but that doesn't mean I deserve to be going on a date with him. I know I'm not the type of person he will have been on dates with before I've seen the girl he's been linked with in the past and I am nowhere near on the same level as them he is definitely way out of my league which is what's making me so insecure.