Loneliness is a void. It eventually consumes all of us. While our family and friends and everyone we know disappear into a dark mist. You'll try so hard to look for them but they're too far gone. And when you think more into dept about it you see them, walking, talking, laughing. You look into the mirror and you see no reflection and you then realize you're the only one that's been gone this whole time. A piece of you has been missing for such a long time and you'll turn away from everyone who tries to help you. You fear happiness because its temporary. You fear rejection because you've been let down so much times. Being told you're different all the time, I'm transgender, I like girls, I have scars that never healed it all makes me so sad. So alone in a world in which I don't exist. I'm not real and loneliness is just a word. It has so much meanings some people have never heard. Why am I so depressed? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?, its a constant cycle of mine repeating these questions of what I did I do wrong. I'll just drink my pills go to sleep and cry wake up wanting to die. I'll tell my therapist I'm fine and okay. I'll laugh with my mum and joke with my friends, but in the end we all die. I'm scared of death and I'm scared of life. I'll die alone but that's okay. Loneliness has reasurred me that I'll have no one for a long time maybe after death I'll realize that its fine.
-Luke
