Why Me?

Chapter Seven

Adelaide's POV

I am taken back by what I see in Perkins. I see Joseph in the corner booth with a girl who looks a bit like Bri. The waiter actually seats Lou and I right next to them, and to my surprise, it is just as I had suspected. Bri had betrayed me, just as Joseph did. She knows that Joseph and I had parted ways, and now I am actually beginning to lose trust in her, just as I did for my father. Out of the corner of my eye, I see Bri staring at me with wide eyes. She did this to herself, its not my fault for all of this shit that is happening to our friendship. Our friendship just went down the drain quickly, and to be honest with you, I don't mind getting rid of her. Joseph looks up to see what Bri is looking at; he follows her eyes to see me with Lou. He has the same facial expression as my replacement does. I know I should be helping her, but I decide against doing anything to tell her that he is just using her to get to some other bitch. I just want to laugh in their surprised faces, and tell them that they ruined all of this fucked up shit that is happening.

"Excuse me Miss. What would you like to drink?" the waitress, Joanah, asks breaking me from my thoughts.

"Oh, sorry. I would like a coffee please." I apologize.

"It's okay sweetie." she smiles.

"Okay." I smile back. 

I have the feeling that her and I could be good friends. She is around my age, so seventeen or eighteen. By the way, if you were wondering, I cancelled out on babysitting, because of my drunken state. I honestly don't regret getting drunk that night because it made me forget about anything and everything that hurt me. I felt almost numb, kind of fresh. I felt irresponsible, but I honestly don't care. 

"Hello!" I open my eyes and lift my head from the table. 

"Did I fall asleep?" I yawn.

"Uh huh." he responds with a yawn.

"Oh. I can see the food isn't here yet, so I assume I wasn't asleep long, was I?" I ask.

'No about five minutes at the most." 

"Hey! Joanah is back!" 

"Who?"

"Joanah! She is our waitress."

"Oh, but she doesn't have the food."

"Maybe she just wants to talk."

"Yeah, I guess!"

She sits down across from me and next to Lou. I figure that she knows Lou and I are dating because of the distance she is keeping between them. We talk about a bunch of random stuff. Her and I exchange numbers and make plans for a double date with Lou, herself, her boyfriend, and me. She leaves to go bring our food to our table, and my phone rings in my pocket. I pull it out and look at the caller I.D. to see it was Bri. I decide to ignore it and start eating. If you knew me well enough, you would know that I am anorexic...and somewhat bulimic. I am going to eat my entire plate of food, go to the bathroom, and regurgitate. After I finish my plan, I pop a few mints into my mouth and head out of washroom. The two of us go outside and hop into the car. 

"I heard you in that bathroom." Louis barks.

"What do you mean 'you heard me'?" I pry for an answer.

"I heard you gag yourself; it's worrying me. A lot."

"Oh...uh..." I am at a loss for words, if you haven't noticed.

"Just please tell me why." he begs.

"I-I am sorry." I cry. "My life has been the worst. I am anorexic too, I know most people don't reveal things like this, but I am one of the few who will." I reveal.

"Is there anything else that you do to yourself?" he interrogates me.

"Yeah. I cut. I am honestly quite surprised that you haven't noticed my scars. I carved Joseph's name right under my breasts." 

"I noticed the ones on your wrists and neck, and I am quite surprised that you don't cover them."  

"Oh, I don't care if people see my cuts or not. It doesn't bother me either way. I have been hurting myself since I was eight or nine."

I start crying and Lou doesn't mind me crying, he attempts to calm me while keeping his eyes on the road. I can't believe he didn't decide to like scream at me, he had decided to help me through this. I love how caring and understanding he is.

Louis' POV

When Adelaide told me that she cuts herself, I felt my heart shatter to pieces. I love her to death, but I can't stand her crying and telling me that she cuts. It kills me to see her crying, I want her to be happy and joyful, not sad and depressed. I cannot wait to get to her house, since I learned that she self-harms. She even has her own house now because her mom moved to a different house yesterday.I could move in with her, but I doubt she trusts me enough to let that happen. I can't wait to have her with me every day of my life until I die. I need her; I can't bare to lose her. When we get to her house , I notice that she is still in her pajamas. I think she noticed as well, because she went to her dresser and got out some clothes. She went into the bathroom to take a shower, I am assuming that she is showering at least. She walks out dressed in a letter-man jacket, black ripped, skinny jeans, black Converse, a black purse, and a black beanie. I just noticed how much she loves black. I heard from Joseph that she likes black and that she has a "dark soul", which I don't believe. I believed that she likes black, but she does not have a dark soul. She has a gorgeous one. I love her so much. No one will understand.

[Authors Note- Hey my monkeys! I did a double update today because I didn't update last night. Thank you so much for reading! If you guys want me to update again soon, I need to have at least five likes. Sorry for this, but i feel as if no one really likes this book, speaking that I only have 10 likes in all. I want to know if you guys like this book or not. ILY!!!!! :)]